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I got to admit...
It's been long since I last blog over here.
But I just couldn't tell anyone how I feel.
Perhaps I prefer to post it in the blog where only a few people can read it.

To be exact, yesterday, I met out with Rachel.
One of my new friend whom I met during the Comex show 2010.
Actually I am really happy to have meet such a person.
I don't know how to say it.
But somehow or what, when both of us were chatting.
So called like introducing more about ourselves to each other.
I realised she remind me of someone.

Someone who talks like that.
Someone who has similar mentality as her.
And that's me.
Haha.
Not BHB okay.
What I mean was she reminded of myself.

What surprised me was her age.
To have such 'mentality' at the age of 16, turning 17 this year was impressive.
I mean from the way she told me.
I can tell that she is a strong girl.
Someone who is independant.
Don't rely on people.
Someone who know how to analyse, observes and plan.
Someone who knows how to balance slightly well between logical and emotional.

Talking to her gave me the feeling of me talking to myself.
Initally when the both of us started messaging each other.
I thought that whatever you put in words might be fake.
Well, I can't assure that I will trust her 100%.

But at least from the way she express herself is more than enough.
I can tell that she is still slightly uncomfortable.
Afterall, we just know each other for like maybe a week?

Even me myself do feel uncomfortable communicating with her in english.
Is not that I am weak in english.
Just that I tends to mix and match both EL and MT.

Really admire this kind of people.
She is the second girl who is younger than me, that I considered as 'mature'
Hope we still can stay in contact.
Haha.

Haha.
Can consider my ideal girl in my mind.
Haha.
Just joking.
Okay, it's pretty late now.
I shall update the next time.

It's been so long since i last post.
Miss this blog, hahs.

Anyway, today I am really happy that some of my brothers actually celebrated my birthday.
Really really appreciated it.

It's been so long since I last ate my own birthday cake.
Almost forgot the feeling of it.
Somehow or what I am really touched.
Thanks a million.

Though some didn't really wish me on my actual day of my birthday, at least they still wish me at the end.

Went to meet Shaun, Chein Yie and desmond to shop around JP.
Mel joined in later.
Followed by Jun Hao, Yong Kuang and Cheryl.

After that, we went to IMM to eat Fish and Co.
Though it wasn't quite a surprised for me, but I really appreciate the effort. :)

Thanks to those who have wished me.
I will remember you guys de.
Time flies, read the post in which I did last year during my birthday.

Each year is getting more and more unique.
Different stage of life, you will meet different people.
Many things will happen along the way.

I looked through my previous blogs, I couldn't believe what I have typed back then.
Things have changed.

A few surprising thing that happen this year.
Nobody will ever believe this.
It's the first time I ever heard Mel wishing me happy birthday, if i am not wrong.
Coz not many people will remember my birthday or maybe they do, but they didnt' wish.
So I am kind of surprised when she wished me in msg.

I also expect that as each year pass by, the people who wish you will never wish you on the dock.
Nor perhaps on that day of your birthday.

Even Li Hui did not wish me on the dock.
But nvm, expect it le.

Lazy to type out whoever wish me.
Hahs.

Now I am stuck with one very question.
Do I really really like her?

Like what desmond said, what is my 'WANT'.

The thing is I still have feeling for her.
But what should I do?
Do I deserved a second chance?

Perhaps its been so long since I ever thought of such things.
Coz my daily routine over the past few months have been studying.
I have forgotten about the meaning of LOVE.
Because of that I don't know how to approach it again.

I like her but I dnt know how and why I like her?
I asked myself, do I like her because of the people around you who is so called encouraging you?
After thinking for awhile.

I admit is yes.
But not to the extent.
If I don't really like her, even if is friends who are encouraging me, I will definitely ask them to stop or avoid it.

So what is it then.
I realised is me myself who don't dare to face her.
I have been into a relationship before.
And because of that, I don't dare to ask her again.
I feel like I am bastard.
And I am worried that she will mind.
I like her but does she still have the feeling for me?
Some said yes.

I am also quite afraid to put my feeling into it again.
Why?
I don't know.
Both of us are busy people.
So busy that we don't even have time to eat or sleep sometime.
How can we even be together.

Both of us are engrossed with either our work or studies.
My FYP and IAP are just about to start.
Do we have time for each other?
Even if we are together, does it mean that we can last long?

But either way, I believe in myself again.
I am going to give it a try.
I hope she gives me a chance again. :)

Part 3 of my holiday.

Went to club yesterday.
Was so called a last minute decision again.
I also don't know why I went club again.

Maybe my friends managed to convince me to go.
But got terms and conditions la.
Went to Butter Factory.
The queue was pretty long.
We have to wait like close to an hour.
Seriously, the second time I went to club.
It almost destroy my impression on how a club should be.
The music was very hip hop.
Not our type.
So we just made full use of the tickets that we have on the drinks.
Then you know what, my friends said suddenly want to change club le.

I was quite stunt at first.
But I just go with their plan after that.
We left that club at around 1am.
Took a cab down to Zouk.
Can you imagine a few minutes ago, we were in Butter Factory; Fash.
Then few minutes later, we were in Zouk; Phuture.

Well, the money spent on that day was very very high.
Fortunately, Zouk de music was fabulous.
When the music is nice, everything will be perfect le.

But over at Phuture, it was very squeezing.
Can't imagine how they dance in such a squeezy place.
Seriously, I hate to see couples hugging and kissing infront of me lor.
Darm sia.
When we dancing, there were like a few couples keep dancing.
The way they dance was like as if they were having sex.
Is abit open la.
I know it is common in club.
But I hate to see it.
Is like wth.
Some were even worst, keep pushing you.
Wa, then you have no choice but to push back.
Anyway, Zouk was better than the previous club that I have went.
Thanks Nicole, Yi Wen and Alfred!!!

That's all. :)

Second part of the holiday.

On the 14th of October.
Went to Wei Sheng's house together with Edwin and Nicole.
Played Majong throughout the whole night.
Seriously I am considered quite suey.
Sat on a bad luck seat in which Wei Sheng had told me.
Coz he was pretty good in majong.
So he know which seat was good.
In terms of the feng shui.
Hahs.
But I am not really obsessed into it.
So anyway, we were playing.
Kept losing money lor.
Until when it come to the "bei" part, then I started to win.
Everytime when it comes to this round.
I will keep winning.
4 round straight each time lor.
But even if i win, it could only cover part of my losses in the previous matches.
So ended up I lost about $8.
Luckily I know my limits on how much to play.

So the next day, went to meet Shaun, Jun Jie and Jun Hao at Vivo City.
I was like darm tired lor.
But still can bear through it.
Coz I am already used to it.
Went to window shopping at Vivo City.
After that, they decided to go to Orchard.
That was like very last minute decision.
So I just followed them.
Went to Orchard Central first.
Wanted to buy some clothes for myself.
But come to think of it, I don't want to waste my savings.
Ended up, went to Uniqlo to buy some t-shirt at Ion Orchard.
There was a promotion at Uniqlo.
So just buy lor since I am outside.

So that's all lor.

Oh ya, forget to mention.
Went to inject my leg too.
Coz I guess I have been eating alot of seafoods these few days.
Ended up, I am allergy to it.
So I got to take medicine to suppress the itchness of my leg.
Sian.
Means I can't eat seafoods for a few months.
Even if I can eat, I can only eat abit.
Sibei shag!!!
Haiz.

The end of part 2.
Will move on to part 3. :)

Ok.
My holiday period is going to end soon.
Going to post some of the activities that I have done for the past few days.

Number 1.

I forgot the day le but anyway, just going to post out.
The first part was the kitchen helper thing.
Well, met quite a few people over there.
At first, the people over there were not very sociable.
In the sense that it's quite hard to communicate with them.
Don't have common topic to talk about.

But the chefs over there were nice.
Met Chef Jacky, Chef Philip, Chef Ong and Chef Frankie.
They were very funny people especially Chef Jacky.
Hahs.
Chef Ong even taught me how to cook Beef soup.
The ingredients and the concept seemed easy to learn.
But I guess the practical part will be another question.

So 2 days after the kitchen part, I was told to come and help out in the event.
Well, it was fun but tiring in some part.
At first, being the runner which means to refill the buffet part was tiring.
Coz the food was hot and heavy.
Somemore I am in charge of the hot dishes.
The smell was fragrant and the ambience over there was fantastic.
It seem as in I was inside a Swiss place.
Coz almost all the people inside the buffet event were Swiss people.
Got see some gorgeous ladies as well as handsome men.
Hahs.

Anyway, that was when I met Nicole's friends, Yi Wen and Alfred.
Both of them were very sociable.
Easy to socialise with.
hahs.
Unlike some of the helpers over there who were not very sociable.

So back to the topic.
Over there, I ate lots of stuff, seriously...
Eat beef until I scared.
Eat pork knuckle until I scared.
Eat ham and different kind of sausages until I am sick of it.
The dessert was nice.
The songs were ok ok la.
They like to keep replaying certain songs.
But I do like the last part of the event.
The songs were nice.
Got YMCA, Dancing Queen and etc.(forgot the title of the song le, hahs)

So the end lor.
Oh ya, the last day of the event, we went to club.
That was my first time clubbing.
So just went there to get a feel of how it was like.
Actually I have been to club before.
But not in Singapore.
But inside the cruise.
So wanted to see if there is any different.
Well, there was a big different.
Hahs.

The first club I went was Supper Club.
I will give 5/10.
Effort for the music bah.

Then that's the end for the 1st part of the story.
Shall call it the Swiss Club Day!
Swiss refers to the event that I went.
Club refers to the Supper Club that I have went.
The end. :)

This is the big group photo without the bride and the groom.

Reason being is I have not received the photos yet.

So just post whatever I have.

Hahs.

So this is the photo without the teachers.

This is our gorgeous groom, Ms Chen;actually can call her Mrs Neo.
Hahs.

This will be our charming bride, Mr Neo.

Today went to Mr and Mrs Neo wedding lunch.

It was very nice.

The ambience over there was very pleasant too.
Come to think of it.

Time flies very fast.

I still remember the time when Mr Neo taught me A Math, he was still single.

Hahs.

But now, already become the husband of Ms Chen, who had also taught me English
My English is abit broken or slang.

But nevermind.

As long as you can understand then should be fine.

Anyway, back to the topic.

Back when I am still in year 1 poly, I had heard that both of them were together.

But back in my mind, I was trying to visualise.

What will their common topic be?
Trying to be exaggerating.

Imagine Mr Neo using A Maths term to communicate with an English teacher.

Haha.
Heard that both Mr and Mrs Neo have just moved over to a new house.

It was pretty big, if I am not wrong.

Can't wait to visit their house.

It's really been ages since I last blog.
Been quite busy and lazy to blog.
There were too many things for me to update.
But just feel like not updating it.

Well, now is already my 3rd week of holiday.
Very boring.
Time flies so fast when it comes to holiday.
Don't really feel like working.
Coz I got to prepare for my FYP.
My portfolio as well as for my demo reel.
My own animation.

A few days ago, I was sick.
That was really a bad thing for me.
Of all thing, I hate to get sick the most.
Being sick is the worst thing that could ever happen to me.
Is like suffering in hell.

But fortunately I managed to recover almost the day before IT Fair as well as for my chalet.
But come to think of the chalet.
It was quite unsuccessful with only a few people turned up.
It was still fun.
Coz we created fun for ourselves.
Sound so weird but got no choice what.

Anyway, I got to fully utilised my remaining holidays to do something meaningful.
Haven't really go and start generating ideas for my CODPIT story for next semester.

And I have not even received my result yet.
Quite worried for my sem 2 de GPA.
Wonder how I will score this time round.
Haiz.

Okay, basically that's all I have to say.
Nothing much to update about.

Wanted to buy my PSP back!!!
For god sake!!!

Back to blog again.
Well, this time round, everything in my studies is going according to my plan.
Fortunately, everything is on time.
Just that for my web design, I think I will have to start chionging for that.

What's the stressful part is the Studio Project 3.
By next friday, we must at least finalize my rough storyboard.
This is like quite tough because I still have other modules to focus.
My concept for web design still haven't finalized yet and I have to worry for SP3.
Sian.

But nevermind.
I won't lose out for that.
I will go all the way out.
This time round, I must do extremely well for SP3.
There should not be any failure.

Left with 6 more weeks before the end of this semester.
Well, I can't wait for that day to come.
I need a break, seriously.
I lack of sleep, energy and food!!!
Everyday is just drawing, designing, creating and thinking.
Mentally and physically tired now.
But I can't stop.
I must continue on.
It's not the end yet.
Raww.

Haiz.
Sometime I find that if there is someone who can share this feeling together with me.
Or to find someone who can talk to.
Sometime seeing couples in either buses, mrt or even in school, it really pissed me off.
Coz I just can't stand them hugging and kissing.
So darm irritating.
But sometime, I really envied them.
Not because I like the kissing and hugging part hor!!!
I mean when I am down, I can at least find someone to share with, to talk with.

However, sometime, come to think about it.
Such a darm busy guy like me wouldn't have the chance to talk about love.
Everyday routine is wake up, wash up and eat abit, then go and continue doing my projects.
Don't even have time to go out.
Who will want such a guy.

Plus, the girl I would want must be understanding and caring.
Plus, the way she dress out and her hair must be good.
I can't stand a girl who don't know how to dress up.
And I can't stand girl who scold vulgar language.
Maybe once in awhile.
But must know how to control.
And she must be reasonable.
That's all.
But I doubt is possible.
Hahs.

Anyway, that's all I have to say.
Yeah!

Don't know whether I should feel relaxed and calm now or should I feel abit worried now.
But either way, it won't change anything unless action is being put on.

Yesterday, in Iluma Shopping Centre, right beside Bugis Village, held an event called the Youth Olympic Games(YOG).

It was the first time ever held in Singapore.
And we so happen to be the first to organise it.
It seemed so grand and big.
Iluma Shopping Centre was the newly opened shopping centre in Bugis area.
It has a total of 7 storeys if I am not wrong.
The place there was quite ambient and cooling.
Just that the foods over there were pretty expensive.
Also saw Jaslyn working over there.

She was selling some IceCream thingy.

Well, I didn't try it out because the price was very scary.
Is like the cheapest I can find is $6.50, if I am not wrong.

Like as if these ice creams were made of gold, hahs.

So the event actually started on Friday.
But my school, SIDM, only have to report duty on Sat.

So I reached at around 1plus.
Saw quite alot of my poly school friends.

Some were in year 1 and 3.

But I didn't talk to them much.
As you know, I am those type who don't talk alot to people whom I don't know them well.
Anyway, back to topic.

So I joined SIDM club recently, so was one of the executive member in the team itself.
So quite alot of my classmates and some of the year 1 were put under the "Character Drawing" section.
So we were so called in charge of that particular booth.
But it was so relaxed that most of the time, we were doing our own life sketching on models instead of helping out.
Hahs.
There were cosplayers who were making some poses for us to draw.
Public was also invited to draw together with us.
They were given a free T-Shirt to draw on it using either paint,marker pens or crayons.
I also drew on it.

But I guessed, I screwed my piece when I drew on the opposite side of the T-Shirt.
Sian diao sia.

But then, overall it was very fun.
I did quite alot of sketches in my sketchbook.

1 book was almost completed.
I bought 2 books for this event, just in case I draw finish the whole book, then got nothing else to do.

What's the worst part to me was the Mac.
Very scary sia.
At first, for our lunch, we were given Mac to eat.

So it was quite ok since most of us didn't have our breakfast and lunch.
So as long as we were hungry, any food also can eat.
But then, when it comes to dinner part, is Mac again.
And is the same food again.
Nuggets, apple pie and coke.
We were like "WTH!".

Then like that was still fine with us.
After we have eaten finish, they asked it we would want to have another round.
Coz, they have too many Mac boxes with them.
So they would like to clear it.

We were like having many rounds of Mac food over and over again.
To be accurate, I think I took about 4 rounds of it.
Eat until we scared of Mac sia.

Then after that, everybody just went home.
Some went out to eat as a group.
I just went home, coz, got too many projects to chiong le.
Haiz.

Ok la.

Back to project le.
BB.

Update next time.

:)