This would be good for those who are blogger freak or maybe too free to view someone's blog.
Anyway, the lesson will start now. Let's begin... Erm... how should I start? Let me think... Maybe I should twist it a little bit. Don't worry, it wasn't meant to offend anybody. What is stated down here is a fact. So just faced it with no anger. Ok, now I shall begin...
"Up till now do you really think the so called 'brothers' will continue?"
"I believed it will end soon. Probably after getting the 'O' Level result. Everything will come back to normal, I guess..."
"Actually I don't blame you for saying that, but it's sad to say, the bond will decrease. Not that you want it to happen, but it's just that the rest wants it to go this way."
"Maybe up to here, some will already be bemused by what the whole conversation is all about."
"Never mind, we shall elaborate further. We put it this way bah. To me, I believed brothers are bull shit. It's just a name by itself. Define the real meaning for brothers. If you really regards yourself as part of the brothers, do think of other people feelings. What is brothers actually? Can anybody answer this FIRST question."
"To me, brothers should never hate each others, make fun of each others, hit each other for the sake of hitting it, never talk back about one another, never sabotage them. Well I know it's abit lame and childish to say this but it's true. The most important thing is trust. No trust, you can forget about the first few paragraphs aready. Is it so hard to give in to someone? I don't understand if that person is willing to sacrifice their time with someone why not with their brothers?
"Maybe got no choice, you can't use that as an excuse to define brothers. Maybe stress could be one of the reason. Maybe spending more time with another person is more worthwhile compared to..."
"I know but don't you think it sound so ironic. Nothing is impossible. What you mean you don't have the choice. Scared someone angry is it? Or scared the worst will happen to you. Nonsense. That's just a lame excuse. You can make your own choice."
"Haiz, that's life. Just admit that it's a fact. That is why I say the bond will diminish soon. I think we got to explain better. Otherwise our audience will be very blur. And they will start to think that we are just talking nonsense."
"Haiya, so easy. Just say out what you want to say la. Dont' beat around the bush. You haven't come to the main point yet, by the way. Why you so frustrated? Calm yourself donw man..."
"Don't worry, I am super calm. Can't you see I don't get angry so easily. That's because I know how to control my emotion. Actually not control, just get used to it. Haha."
"What a fake laugh! Then why nowadays you do get mad easily. For example, you tends to retaliate if someone disturb you. Why huh? You just contradicting yourself. Lame siah!"
"How you know that was fake. So smart. Of course that was fake. Told you already I have no feelings for this anymore. Totally no more. The reason why I retaliate back is because limitation has exceeded. Imagine you are the one who is being disturbed, what is your normal reaction? Retaliate right? Only abnormal person like me can bear it for awhile. And to tell you something, even if I am angry, I will cool down very fast. So don't have to worry, I won't hit back till so hard. Won't be so painful de."
"Of course won't be painful la, you are the one who is retaliating back, but I understand why you can cool down easily. Mainly because you put all your anger and hatred in your heart, then when someone purposely go and disturb it, explosion will occur. Luckily you learn how to stay calm. That's why you can get angry for only the most 1min. Haha. Even if you are angry, that's so fake too. Just like when you are laughing. Everything is so fake about you. But not all lah, of course."
"You are right. I agree that I will do that. But there is a limitation. Don't worry, I have already lost feeling to it. Next time, if someone ever disturb me, I will try to control. I don't feel anything. I am neutral. I will just tell the person who disturb me to think on their shoe. Imagine you are being disturbed. What's your reaction? 'SORRY!' won't solve all problems everytime. What if one day, I purposely hit you so hard that you injured yourself, then I apologized. No matter how sincere, it's futile."
"Totally agree! Or if not, you can just smile back to that person to ask him/her to stop. Maybe it might stop. But if it still don't stop, I WON'T mind you retaliating back for the time being."
"Control myself! Must always bear this in mind!"
So far, is this story very interesting? Or maybe you don't understand what this author is trying to convey? Well, too bad for you if you don't. This is part 1.
"You are so unique. next week collecting result, maybe the possiblity is very high! You worried or not?"
"LOL, of course. History might repeat although I don't want it to happen. Very sad to hear or see tragic news. Pray hard is useless. Think too much also no use. That's why I got no feeling about how my result will be. What is done cannot be undone. I admit I will get sad. Never will I get happy."
"Ok lah, change topics. Do you agree friends are useless?
"Ha, nice one! Interesting topic. In my dictionary, best friends never exsist. Brothers also. The reason why I said it exist is because to a certain extent. Like you know, I am now a straight forward person, if I got anything to say, I will just say but will control myself. If you call yourself brothers, you should voice out your unhappiness. Frankly speaking, who agree that you are happy ALL TIMES when you are with your best friends. Tell you the truth, I only see you as my brothers if I think you are. I guess no one dare to voice out their unhappiness because they are worried the friendship will break. Like I said, I don't feel anything even if that happen.
BUT I will try my best to avoid this scenario where brothers will quarrell over something. Sooner or later, brothers will either quarrell over fame, wealth, women and lastly, minor problem like back stabbing. I hate people who like to spread rumors. Put it nicely, they are what I called the 'BIG MOUTH' Like as if they can't live without spreading rumors. Sometime not that I don't want to tell you something, mainly because of this habit mentioned above. So how about you?"
"For me, I hate people who like to talk bad about someone. I don't understand why people go to hate each other. And when they start hating someone, they tend to sabo the person, purposely spread rumors about the person or maybe purposely embarrassing them infront of a crowd. Maybe I have lost feeling in that too. But really, why is there a need to hate. That is why I say 'What is the brothers?" Real brothers will never hate each other. Hate is such a burden. For now onwards, I hate no one. No matter how bad habits the person has, I will be neutral. I will give minimal opinions or maybe nothing. I won't give comments. Sometime people got this habit of acting big and boastful about something. Just let it be. Why do you have to get so angry about it. Jealous can't be stopped but try to control. Everyone will get jealous, me also. But just forget that jealously. It's because of this jealously which caused many people to hate each other. Haiz. Human being are still so childish despite the different in ages."
"Ha, the way we discuss so far is like as if we are doing an essay. Anyway, got one question to ask you. This one got to be indirectly to some of you. How many Poly Open house have you went?'
"Four Poly in Singapore excluding Republic Poly. I know what you are trying to say le. Of course la, there are reasons why some Poly I go alone by myself. Do you have any idea why I went NYP Open house alone instead of asking friends along. Mainly because they are not interested. Since they are not interested, ask them to come will be a waste of time. Tell you the truth, I rather go alone than to have friends accompanying you to come. Because you will NEVER enjoy the event. I never enjoy going to TP, NAP. Reason being simple, I didn't have the chance to really ask lots of questions. Don't you feel stress if you want to see something and your friends are like indirectly asking you to hurry up because they find it quite bored. Well that's unfair to you. But like I said I don't feel anything, because I won't be putting NAP and TP as my first choice. NYP will be my first choice. You know I am a systematic person. I don't like to do things halfway. Sometimes going out with friends, you got to give in to your friends and your friends don't give in. Maybe they don't know. Well, now they know. Everytime put yourself in other people shoes and think carefully. That's why I usually will think twice before saying."
"Ya, I know, sometime people just don't understand what you are trying to say. You know. Because you are weak in language."
"I know, but there is also sometime where people just don't understand what I am saying. Not because I don't know what I am saying, is because they themselves don't know, then they counterback saying that it was me who don't know what I am saying. Sound so chim right. Never mind. Forget about it. The best way is to keep silence. Don't give opinion. Save more troubles than to create more troubles. From now onwards, I also will not lead the way or suggest anything. Reason is simple. If you lead the wrong path or suggest the wrong thing, you will be shoot back. Lead the wrong way, people will say you are wasting their times. Say the wrong things, people will say too crazy, unrealistic, or don't understand what the hack you are talking about. Well, for me I don't mind because I won't feel angry over this small issue. Just voicing it out only."
"Nobody ask you to lead or speak. Lol. Anyway, nice try. Sometime why you feel so emo huh?"
"I am not emo, is people's point of perspective that thinks that I am emo. Like I said, I am emotionless. But don't worry, I will have emotions for someone. People will start to think who is this someone, and will start to spread. Super BIG MOUTH. Lol. haha. Fake!"
"Now I know why you always put haha. There are lots of meaning in it. Sometime fake smile can save you from alot of troubles. Sometime you can cover your anger just by smiling. Sometimes you can hide your sadness by smilling, etc... Am I right?
"Bingo! But don't worry, although I like to trick people, there is limitation to it. I won't cheat people's feeling even though I lost mine. I won't cheat people's money even though I am so called desperate for money to buy something. I won't cheat friendship, love and care. Even if I were to trick you, it's just for fun or maybe it's just a form of revenge for what you have done to me. I don't hate people. No hatred for me. Just calmness. That's why I said calmness will solve everything. EVERYTHING. Haiz..."
"Glad that you voice out your own opinions. Rather than to pretend though I know you always like to pretend alot. Nobody really understand you except you. Every sentence that is stated above has its own meaning. Try your best to deduce it. Maybe you are not part of the character YET for this chapter 2. There are still some more to go. Don't worry, this story is quite short. I just explain in details. Very boring right?
You may not understand this story because I purposely twist some language to those people involved only. If you don't understand, never mind. Don't worry, brothers will continue for as long as possible but will never be forever. I hope those who I have mentioned down here won't get angry. Even if you feel like hitting me, just go ahead. But make sure you don't regret, ok. I am not offending anyone. Just stating the fact. Integrity mah. Tell the truth!!! Haha. Next blog will be chapter 3 and 4. Kk. Don't worry, I will act normal. Just behave normal. But something to say to all. After the release of 'O' result, Flare will be no longer be around. That's my purpose of put CASTAWAYFLARE.... as part of my blogspot. Lol.