I know the answer le.
I know what I want le.
I found the solution.
Just that I need actions to execute out.
You are my motivation all along.
Be it what happen.
You will always be the first person I will think about.
Maybe you do not know yet.
But soon, when the time comes, I will put in the action.
Now I am preparing myself.
Because I don't think I am capable enough to do that.
I swear to god that I will adhere to my own promise one day.
Be it the answer is good or bad.
I will accept the fate.
I believe in myself.
For years, I kept it in secret.
Soon, the secret will be reaveled.
I got my own plan.
I got my own way to execute it out.
Cause everything has already been planned since ages ago.
So it won't fail.
Is only the result that will shock me.
I really really want the result to be perfect.
And is perfect forever.
I know the chances of me to get it perfect is very very low.
But I will try.
Because if I don't try.
I am afraid I won't be able to try later.
So I will try.
1 year down the road, I will tell you.
Just 1 year.
1 Year later, I will change everything.
At the end of the day, whatever decision make by you, I will accept it.
But I will wait.
I will wait till one day when I can't wait anymore.
I believe in myself.
That's one of my dream too.
I won't die unless I fulfil all my desired dreams.
And you happen to be one of them.
I will.
I swear I will.
I will do extremely well for my studies.
Because I know you will do even better than me.
So I won't lose to you.
As for status,
I will do well.
I know how to do it.
Everything have been planned ages.
I apologized for not adhering to my rules within these 2 years.
But it won't happen le.
I only have one target.
The only one.
Till the day we meet again.
I will remember the promise I make to myself.
It will be applied.
Be it whether I am tired or not.
I will not give up.
I really believe in myself.
That's all I want to say today.
Other than that, today my house was totally in full renovation.
As in all the furnitures have changed.
The delivery man came over and changed it.
But it was quite a tedious job cause both me and my dad have to carry the previous stuffs out of the house.
And it was very heavy.
Now the whole house looked pretty nice.
Got time, I will take a photo of it.
Still got other personal stuff I need to do first before I continue on with other thing.
I will go do now.
Shall update next time.