It's been so long since i last post.
Miss this blog, hahs.
Anyway, today I am really happy that some of my brothers actually celebrated my birthday.
Really really appreciated it.
It's been so long since I last ate my own birthday cake.
Almost forgot the feeling of it.
Somehow or what I am really touched.
Thanks a million.
Though some didn't really wish me on my actual day of my birthday, at least they still wish me at the end.
Went to meet Shaun, Chein Yie and desmond to shop around JP.
Mel joined in later.
Followed by Jun Hao, Yong Kuang and Cheryl.
After that, we went to IMM to eat Fish and Co.
Though it wasn't quite a surprised for me, but I really appreciate the effort. :)
Thanks to those who have wished me.
I will remember you guys de.
Time flies, read the post in which I did last year during my birthday.
Each year is getting more and more unique.
Different stage of life, you will meet different people.
Many things will happen along the way.
I looked through my previous blogs, I couldn't believe what I have typed back then.
Things have changed.
A few surprising thing that happen this year.
Nobody will ever believe this.
It's the first time I ever heard Mel wishing me happy birthday, if i am not wrong.
Coz not many people will remember my birthday or maybe they do, but they didnt' wish.
So I am kind of surprised when she wished me in msg.
I also expect that as each year pass by, the people who wish you will never wish you on the dock.
Nor perhaps on that day of your birthday.
Even Li Hui did not wish me on the dock.
But nvm, expect it le.
Lazy to type out whoever wish me.
Hahs.
Now I am stuck with one very question.
Do I really really like her?
Like what desmond said, what is my 'WANT'.
The thing is I still have feeling for her.
But what should I do?
Do I deserved a second chance?
Perhaps its been so long since I ever thought of such things.
Coz my daily routine over the past few months have been studying.
I have forgotten about the meaning of LOVE.
Because of that I don't know how to approach it again.
I like her but I dnt know how and why I like her?
I asked myself, do I like her because of the people around you who is so called encouraging you?
After thinking for awhile.
I admit is yes.
But not to the extent.
If I don't really like her, even if is friends who are encouraging me, I will definitely ask them to stop or avoid it.
So what is it then.
I realised is me myself who don't dare to face her.
I have been into a relationship before.
And because of that, I don't dare to ask her again.
I feel like I am bastard.
And I am worried that she will mind.
I like her but does she still have the feeling for me?
Some said yes.
I am also quite afraid to put my feeling into it again.
Why?
I don't know.
Both of us are busy people.
So busy that we don't even have time to eat or sleep sometime.
How can we even be together.
Both of us are engrossed with either our work or studies.
My FYP and IAP are just about to start.
Do we have time for each other?
Even if we are together, does it mean that we can last long?
But either way, I believe in myself again.
I am going to give it a try.
I hope she gives me a chance again. :)