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Relaxation day

2010-09-12T02:18:00.003+08:00

I got to admit...
It's been long since I last blog over here.
But I just couldn't tell anyone how I feel.
Perhaps I prefer to post it in the blog where only a few people can read it.

To be exact, yesterday, I met out with Rachel.
One of my new friend whom I met during the Comex show 2010.
Actually I am really happy to have meet such a person.
I don't know how to say it.
But somehow or what, when both of us were chatting.
So called like introducing more about ourselves to each other.
I realised she remind me of someone.

Someone who talks like that.
Someone who has similar mentality as her.
And that's me.
Haha.
Not BHB okay.
What I mean was she reminded of myself.

What surprised me was her age.
To have such 'mentality' at the age of 16, turning 17 this year was impressive.
I mean from the way she told me.
I can tell that she is a strong girl.
Someone who is independant.
Don't rely on people.
Someone who know how to analyse, observes and plan.
Someone who knows how to balance slightly well between logical and emotional.

Talking to her gave me the feeling of me talking to myself.
Initally when the both of us started messaging each other.
I thought that whatever you put in words might be fake.
Well, I can't assure that I will trust her 100%.

But at least from the way she express herself is more than enough.
I can tell that she is still slightly uncomfortable.
Afterall, we just know each other for like maybe a week?

Even me myself do feel uncomfortable communicating with her in english.
Is not that I am weak in english.
Just that I tends to mix and match both EL and MT.

Really admire this kind of people.
She is the second girl who is younger than me, that I considered as 'mature'
Hope we still can stay in contact.
Haha.

Haha.
Can consider my ideal girl in my mind.
Haha.
Just joking.
Okay, it's pretty late now.
I shall update the next time.

19th Birthday celebration at Fish and Co

2010-03-07T23:21:00.005+08:00

It's been so long since i last post.
Miss this blog, hahs.

Anyway, today I am really happy that some of my brothers actually celebrated my birthday.
Really really appreciated it.

It's been so long since I last ate my own birthday cake.
Almost forgot the feeling of it.
Somehow or what I am really touched.
Thanks a million.

Though some didn't really wish me on my actual day of my birthday, at least they still wish me at the end.

Went to meet Shaun, Chein Yie and desmond to shop around JP.
Mel joined in later.
Followed by Jun Hao, Yong Kuang and Cheryl.

After that, we went to IMM to eat Fish and Co.
Though it wasn't quite a surprised for me, but I really appreciate the effort. :)

Thanks to those who have wished me.
I will remember you guys de.
Time flies, read the post in which I did last year during my birthday.

Each year is getting more and more unique.
Different stage of life, you will meet different people.
Many things will happen along the way.

I looked through my previous blogs, I couldn't believe what I have typed back then.
Things have changed.

A few surprising thing that happen this year.
Nobody will ever believe this.
It's the first time I ever heard Mel wishing me happy birthday, if i am not wrong.
Coz not many people will remember my birthday or maybe they do, but they didnt' wish.
So I am kind of surprised when she wished me in msg.

I also expect that as each year pass by, the people who wish you will never wish you on the dock.
Nor perhaps on that day of your birthday.

Even Li Hui did not wish me on the dock.
But nvm, expect it le.

Lazy to type out whoever wish me.
Hahs.

Now I am stuck with one very question.
Do I really really like her?

Like what desmond said, what is my 'WANT'.

The thing is I still have feeling for her.
But what should I do?
Do I deserved a second chance?

Perhaps its been so long since I ever thought of such things.
Coz my daily routine over the past few months have been studying.
I have forgotten about the meaning of LOVE.
Because of that I don't know how to approach it again.

I like her but I dnt know how and why I like her?
I asked myself, do I like her because of the people around you who is so called encouraging you?
After thinking for awhile.

I admit is yes.
But not to the extent.
If I don't really like her, even if is friends who are encouraging me, I will definitely ask them to stop or avoid it.

So what is it then.
I realised is me myself who don't dare to face her.
I have been into a relationship before.
And because of that, I don't dare to ask her again.
I feel like I am bastard.
And I am worried that she will mind.
I like her but does she still have the feeling for me?
Some said yes.

I am also quite afraid to put my feeling into it again.
Why?
I don't know.
Both of us are busy people.
So busy that we don't even have time to eat or sleep sometime.
How can we even be together.

Both of us are engrossed with either our work or studies.
My FYP and IAP are just about to start.
Do we have time for each other?
Even if we are together, does it mean that we can last long?

But either way, I believe in myself again.
I am going to give it a try.
I hope she gives me a chance again. :)

Week4 and 5 of my holiday(part 3)

2009-10-10T16:00:00.003+08:00

Part 3 of my holiday.

Went to club yesterday.
Was so called a last minute decision again.
I also don't know why I went club again.

Maybe my friends managed to convince me to go.
But got terms and conditions la.
Went to Butter Factory.
The queue was pretty long.
We have to wait like close to an hour.
Seriously, the second time I went to club.
It almost destroy my impression on how a club should be.
The music was very hip hop.
Not our type.
So we just made full use of the tickets that we have on the drinks.
Then you know what, my friends said suddenly want to change club le.

I was quite stunt at first.
But I just go with their plan after that.
We left that club at around 1am.
Took a cab down to Zouk.
Can you imagine a few minutes ago, we were in Butter Factory; Fash.
Then few minutes later, we were in Zouk; Phuture.

Well, the money spent on that day was very very high.
Fortunately, Zouk de music was fabulous.
When the music is nice, everything will be perfect le.

But over at Phuture, it was very squeezing.
Can't imagine how they dance in such a squeezy place.
Seriously, I hate to see couples hugging and kissing infront of me lor.
Darm sia.
When we dancing, there were like a few couples keep dancing.
The way they dance was like as if they were having sex.
Is abit open la.
I know it is common in club.
But I hate to see it.
Is like wth.
Some were even worst, keep pushing you.
Wa, then you have no choice but to push back.
Anyway, Zouk was better than the previous club that I have went.
Thanks Nicole, Yi Wen and Alfred!!!

That's all. :)

Week 4 and 5 of my holiday(part 2)

2009-10-10T15:22:00.002+08:00

Second part of the holiday.

On the 14th of October.
Went to Wei Sheng's house together with Edwin and Nicole.
Played Majong throughout the whole night.
Seriously I am considered quite suey.
Sat on a bad luck seat in which Wei Sheng had told me.
Coz he was pretty good in majong.
So he know which seat was good.
In terms of the feng shui.
Hahs.
But I am not really obsessed into it.
So anyway, we were playing.
Kept losing money lor.
Until when it come to the "bei" part, then I started to win.
Everytime when it comes to this round.
I will keep winning.
4 round straight each time lor.
But even if i win, it could only cover part of my losses in the previous matches.
So ended up I lost about $8.
Luckily I know my limits on how much to play.

So the next day, went to meet Shaun, Jun Jie and Jun Hao at Vivo City.
I was like darm tired lor.
But still can bear through it.
Coz I am already used to it.
Went to window shopping at Vivo City.
After that, they decided to go to Orchard.
That was like very last minute decision.
So I just followed them.
Went to Orchard Central first.
Wanted to buy some clothes for myself.
But come to think of it, I don't want to waste my savings.
Ended up, went to Uniqlo to buy some t-shirt at Ion Orchard.
There was a promotion at Uniqlo.
So just buy lor since I am outside.

So that's all lor.

Oh ya, forget to mention.
Went to inject my leg too.
Coz I guess I have been eating alot of seafoods these few days.
Ended up, I am allergy to it.
So I got to take medicine to suppress the itchness of my leg.
Sian.
Means I can't eat seafoods for a few months.
Even if I can eat, I can only eat abit.
Sibei shag!!!
Haiz.

The end of part 2.
Will move on to part 3. :)

Week 4 and 5 of my holiday(part 1)

2009-10-10T14:51:00.002+08:00

Ok.
My holiday period is going to end soon.
Going to post some of the activities that I have done for the past few days.

Number 1.

I forgot the day le but anyway, just going to post out.
The first part was the kitchen helper thing.
Well, met quite a few people over there.
At first, the people over there were not very sociable.
In the sense that it's quite hard to communicate with them.
Don't have common topic to talk about.

But the chefs over there were nice.
Met Chef Jacky, Chef Philip, Chef Ong and Chef Frankie.
They were very funny people especially Chef Jacky.
Hahs.
Chef Ong even taught me how to cook Beef soup.
The ingredients and the concept seemed easy to learn.
But I guess the practical part will be another question.

So 2 days after the kitchen part, I was told to come and help out in the event.
Well, it was fun but tiring in some part.
At first, being the runner which means to refill the buffet part was tiring.
Coz the food was hot and heavy.
Somemore I am in charge of the hot dishes.
The smell was fragrant and the ambience over there was fantastic.
It seem as in I was inside a Swiss place.
Coz almost all the people inside the buffet event were Swiss people.
Got see some gorgeous ladies as well as handsome men.
Hahs.

Anyway, that was when I met Nicole's friends, Yi Wen and Alfred.
Both of them were very sociable.
Easy to socialise with.
hahs.
Unlike some of the helpers over there who were not very sociable.

So back to the topic.
Over there, I ate lots of stuff, seriously...
Eat beef until I scared.
Eat pork knuckle until I scared.
Eat ham and different kind of sausages until I am sick of it.
The dessert was nice.
The songs were ok ok la.
They like to keep replaying certain songs.
But I do like the last part of the event.
The songs were nice.
Got YMCA, Dancing Queen and etc.(forgot the title of the song le, hahs)

So the end lor.
Oh ya, the last day of the event, we went to club.
That was my first time clubbing.
So just went there to get a feel of how it was like.
Actually I have been to club before.
But not in Singapore.
But inside the cruise.
So wanted to see if there is any different.
Well, there was a big different.
Hahs.

The first club I went was Supper Club.
I will give 5/10.
Effort for the music bah.

Then that's the end for the 1st part of the story.
Shall call it the Swiss Club Day!
Swiss refers to the event that I went.
Club refers to the Supper Club that I have went.
The end. :)

Mr and Mrs Neo Wedding

2009-10-04T23:18:00.008+08:00

This is the big group photo without the bride and the groom.

Reason being is I have not received the photos yet.

So just post whatever I have.

Hahs.

So this is the photo without the teachers.

This is our gorgeous groom, Ms Chen;actually can call her Mrs Neo.
Hahs.

This will be our charming bride, Mr Neo.

Today went to Mr and Mrs Neo wedding lunch.

It was very nice.

The ambience over there was very pleasant too.
Come to think of it.

Time flies very fast.

I still remember the time when Mr Neo taught me A Math, he was still single.

Hahs.

But now, already become the husband of Ms Chen, who had also taught me English
My English is abit broken or slang.

But nevermind.

As long as you can understand then should be fine.

Anyway, back to the topic.

Back when I am still in year 1 poly, I had heard that both of them were together.

But back in my mind, I was trying to visualise.

What will their common topic be?
Trying to be exaggerating.

Imagine Mr Neo using A Maths term to communicate with an English teacher.

Haha.
Heard that both Mr and Mrs Neo have just moved over to a new house.

It was pretty big, if I am not wrong.

Can't wait to visit their house.

2009-09-21T22:48:00.002+08:00

It's really been ages since I last blog.
Been quite busy and lazy to blog.
There were too many things for me to update.
But just feel like not updating it.

Well, now is already my 3rd week of holiday.
Very boring.
Time flies so fast when it comes to holiday.
Don't really feel like working.
Coz I got to prepare for my FYP.
My portfolio as well as for my demo reel.
My own animation.

A few days ago, I was sick.
That was really a bad thing for me.
Of all thing, I hate to get sick the most.
Being sick is the worst thing that could ever happen to me.
Is like suffering in hell.

But fortunately I managed to recover almost the day before IT Fair as well as for my chalet.
But come to think of the chalet.
It was quite unsuccessful with only a few people turned up.
It was still fun.
Coz we created fun for ourselves.
Sound so weird but got no choice what.

Anyway, I got to fully utilised my remaining holidays to do something meaningful.
Haven't really go and start generating ideas for my CODPIT story for next semester.

And I have not even received my result yet.
Quite worried for my sem 2 de GPA.
Wonder how I will score this time round.
Haiz.

Okay, basically that's all I have to say.
Nothing much to update about.

Wanted to buy my PSP back!!!
For god sake!!!

25th July 2009

2009-07-25T15:09:00.002+08:00

Back to blog again.
Well, this time round, everything in my studies is going according to my plan.
Fortunately, everything is on time.
Just that for my web design, I think I will have to start chionging for that.

What's the stressful part is the Studio Project 3.
By next friday, we must at least finalize my rough storyboard.
This is like quite tough because I still have other modules to focus.
My concept for web design still haven't finalized yet and I have to worry for SP3.
Sian.

But nevermind.
I won't lose out for that.
I will go all the way out.
This time round, I must do extremely well for SP3.
There should not be any failure.

Left with 6 more weeks before the end of this semester.
Well, I can't wait for that day to come.
I need a break, seriously.
I lack of sleep, energy and food!!!
Everyday is just drawing, designing, creating and thinking.
Mentally and physically tired now.
But I can't stop.
I must continue on.
It's not the end yet.
Raww.

Haiz.
Sometime I find that if there is someone who can share this feeling together with me.
Or to find someone who can talk to.
Sometime seeing couples in either buses, mrt or even in school, it really pissed me off.
Coz I just can't stand them hugging and kissing.
So darm irritating.
But sometime, I really envied them.
Not because I like the kissing and hugging part hor!!!
I mean when I am down, I can at least find someone to share with, to talk with.

However, sometime, come to think about it.
Such a darm busy guy like me wouldn't have the chance to talk about love.
Everyday routine is wake up, wash up and eat abit, then go and continue doing my projects.
Don't even have time to go out.
Who will want such a guy.

Plus, the girl I would want must be understanding and caring.
Plus, the way she dress out and her hair must be good.
I can't stand a girl who don't know how to dress up.
And I can't stand girl who scold vulgar language.
Maybe once in awhile.
But must know how to control.
And she must be reasonable.
That's all.
But I doubt is possible.
Hahs.

Anyway, that's all I have to say.
Yeah!

Youth Olympic Games(YOG)

2009-07-12T12:33:00.002+08:00

Don't know whether I should feel relaxed and calm now or should I feel abit worried now.
But either way, it won't change anything unless action is being put on.

Yesterday, in Iluma Shopping Centre, right beside Bugis Village, held an event called the Youth Olympic Games(YOG).

It was the first time ever held in Singapore.
And we so happen to be the first to organise it.
It seemed so grand and big.
Iluma Shopping Centre was the newly opened shopping centre in Bugis area.
It has a total of 7 storeys if I am not wrong.
The place there was quite ambient and cooling.
Just that the foods over there were pretty expensive.
Also saw Jaslyn working over there.

She was selling some IceCream thingy.

Well, I didn't try it out because the price was very scary.
Is like the cheapest I can find is $6.50, if I am not wrong.

Like as if these ice creams were made of gold, hahs.

So the event actually started on Friday.
But my school, SIDM, only have to report duty on Sat.

So I reached at around 1plus.
Saw quite alot of my poly school friends.

Some were in year 1 and 3.

But I didn't talk to them much.
As you know, I am those type who don't talk alot to people whom I don't know them well.
Anyway, back to topic.

So I joined SIDM club recently, so was one of the executive member in the team itself.
So quite alot of my classmates and some of the year 1 were put under the "Character Drawing" section.
So we were so called in charge of that particular booth.
But it was so relaxed that most of the time, we were doing our own life sketching on models instead of helping out.
Hahs.
There were cosplayers who were making some poses for us to draw.
Public was also invited to draw together with us.
They were given a free T-Shirt to draw on it using either paint,marker pens or crayons.
I also drew on it.

But I guessed, I screwed my piece when I drew on the opposite side of the T-Shirt.
Sian diao sia.

But then, overall it was very fun.
I did quite alot of sketches in my sketchbook.

1 book was almost completed.
I bought 2 books for this event, just in case I draw finish the whole book, then got nothing else to do.

What's the worst part to me was the Mac.
Very scary sia.
At first, for our lunch, we were given Mac to eat.

So it was quite ok since most of us didn't have our breakfast and lunch.
So as long as we were hungry, any food also can eat.
But then, when it comes to dinner part, is Mac again.
And is the same food again.
Nuggets, apple pie and coke.
We were like "WTH!".

Then like that was still fine with us.
After we have eaten finish, they asked it we would want to have another round.
Coz, they have too many Mac boxes with them.
So they would like to clear it.

We were like having many rounds of Mac food over and over again.
To be accurate, I think I took about 4 rounds of it.
Eat until we scared of Mac sia.

Then after that, everybody just went home.
Some went out to eat as a group.
I just went home, coz, got too many projects to chiong le.
Haiz.

Ok la.

Back to project le.
BB.

Update next time.

:)

20th June 2009

2009-06-20T15:02:00.003+08:00

Haiz.
Holiday is like school day for me.
Still got lots of stuff for me to do.
Especially Story and 3D Modelling.
Thought holiday is really to rest and relax.
But it don't seem to be.
Except that I can rest abit more.
Haiz.

Hope to do well for this sem.
Planning to get all As.
And 5 distinctions, for Story, 2D Animation, 3D Modelling, Drawing and Studio Project 3.
These are my favourite modules but also the tiring modules.
In the sense that I have to do alot of works.

Plus, I know where I want to head to le.
Time passed fast.
Well, just update next time.
Got to chiong for my portfolio le.

12th June 2009

2009-06-14T00:53:00.001+08:00

I know the answer le.
I know what I want le.
I found the solution.
Just that I need actions to execute out.
You are my motivation all along.
Be it what happen.
You will always be the first person I will think about.
Maybe you do not know yet.
But soon, when the time comes, I will put in the action.
Now I am preparing myself.
Because I don't think I am capable enough to do that.
I swear to god that I will adhere to my own promise one day.
Be it the answer is good or bad.
I will accept the fate.
I believe in myself.
For years, I kept it in secret.
Soon, the secret will be reaveled.
I got my own plan.
I got my own way to execute it out.
Cause everything has already been planned since ages ago.
So it won't fail.
Is only the result that will shock me.
I really really want the result to be perfect.
And is perfect forever.

I know the chances of me to get it perfect is very very low.
But I will try.
Because if I don't try.
I am afraid I won't be able to try later.
So I will try.
1 year down the road, I will tell you.
Just 1 year.

1 Year later, I will change everything.
At the end of the day, whatever decision make by you, I will accept it.
But I will wait.
I will wait till one day when I can't wait anymore.
I believe in myself.

That's one of my dream too.
I won't die unless I fulfil all my desired dreams.
And you happen to be one of them.

I will.
I swear I will.
I will do extremely well for my studies.
Because I know you will do even better than me.
So I won't lose to you.

As for status,
I will do well.
I know how to do it.

Everything have been planned ages.
I apologized for not adhering to my rules within these 2 years.
But it won't happen le.
I only have one target.
The only one.
Till the day we meet again.
I will remember the promise I make to myself.
It will be applied.
Be it whether I am tired or not.
I will not give up.
I really believe in myself.

That's all I want to say today.

Other than that, today my house was totally in full renovation.
As in all the furnitures have changed.
The delivery man came over and changed it.
But it was quite a tedious job cause both me and my dad have to carry the previous stuffs out of the house.
And it was very heavy.
Now the whole house looked pretty nice.
Got time, I will take a photo of it.
Still got other personal stuff I need to do first before I continue on with other thing.
I will go do now.

Shall update next time.

Tiredness is the only thing I can describe.

2009-06-12T23:49:00.003+08:00

Haiz.
Finally...
I shall call it a day for the first half of Sem 1.
Been freaking hell tired.
Though I have been scolding vulgar to myself these few weeks due to over tiredness, I guessed I have to change this habit.
Haiz.
Lose my calmness le.
Must get it back.

Seem to me, that I have learnt quite alot of lessons.
Mistakes I mean.
So many unforgiving mistakes that makes me freaking hell tired.
Been staying up so late and waking up early.
Been sleeping in train and even lectures sometime.
Really can't stand it.

But finally it ends le.
But is only for awhile.
2 weeks later will be even more tedious and tired.
I got to rest myself.
Do some self-reflection and planning.
Got quite alot of stuffs I need to do.

To be frank, failing is not the issue.
But scoring distinctions for all modules is the issue.
Is freaking stress in my class.
All are super duper hardworking.
Some are even hardworking than me.
But most importantly is myself.
I am challenging myself this time.
No matter what, I must not get any B-.
At least a B+.
3 distinctions at least.
3 As.
I will do it.
I have to do it!

So let's reflect on some of my modules.
For Story, I have been redoing my proposal over and over again.
Super shag.
Got to stay up late just to come out with a nice story that is not really cliche.
Haiz.
What's even more dissappointing is when I got back the result.
I got 16.5.
Total marks is 25.
What a letdown to myself.
Somemore the lowest in my class.
Haiz.
And what is the shocking news is that, when I asked Ms Eva about what went wrong for my proposal.
She told me that the story was quite nice.
Can actually get at least a B or even A.
But...
Due to my freaking hell mistakes.
For not reading the instruction carefully.
There goes my mark!!!
Haiz.
Nevermind, the next assignment which is the Story Cards.
I promised I will follow exactly the same instructions!!!
I will make sure I score distinction for that assignment so it can pull my overall result up.
Haiz.
So disappointed with my result.
Haiz...

For Web Design.
I can simply say that this is the hell module that cause me to have sleepless night.
I have been redoing various designs.
Seem like my design skills have deteriorated.
Sad...
Very upset.
Plus the test 1 and assignment 1.1, I have all screwed up!
What the hell!!!
I am going crazy le.
Yesterday, I started doing my digitised mock up for my web design from 8pm all the way to today, 9am.
Then I go to school to continue.
But I didn't really finish everything.
Haiz.
But no choice, just submit what I have.
Very disappointed for that too.
Hope that the result won't turn up to be that bad.

For my Drawing 3.
This is freaking me too.
You know what, I haven't been touching up on my sketchbook.
Reason being is simple, I got other modules to focus on.
Haiz.
I guess the marks for my sketchbook is going to be very bad.
Got practice drawing more drapery and shading.
Maybe also do some tracing.

For my 2D Animation.
It was pretty ok.
Just that, there were some part in which I screwed up.
Fortunately, I managed to catch up for that.
And because of this, I neglect part of my other modules also.
Haiz.
Sacrifices some part of my web design assignment today to touch up for my 2D Animation.
You know what, I have to submit both 2D animation and the Web design assignment before 5pm.
Freaking hell crazy for me.
But I still got submit at the end.
Just that I think the quality won't be that good.
Haiz.

What have happened to me?
I lose almost everything.
Lost my confidence and my calmness.
This 2 weeks break, I am going to catch up with whatever stuff that I have missed out.
Especially for Web Design de CSS.
Sound quite chim for me to asborb.
Haiz.

As for 3D Animation, i got nothing much to add on.
Just that for my test 1, the animation of the bouncing ball, I screwed that up.
Haiz.
Who asked me not to spend some time to practice on it.
Sian.

Then for my 3D Modelling.
That is also very bad.
My marks seemed to deteriorate from assignment 1 to assignment 2.
Somemore the weightage is higher.
Haiz.
Now for assignment 3, I got to do it even better.
Can't afford to fail now!

Now sum up everything.
After the term breaks, I do not want to see myself like that again.
I guessed the reasons why I keep redoing some part is because I laack of planning.
Haiz.
Will definitely plan my time well this time.
And I will execute outa my calmness.
Stay calm.
And smile.
:)

That's the beauty of it.
I will turn the table around the next time round.
Yeah.
Okay, got to go and rest le.
Super tired that I am going to get sick at anytime.
BB!
Shall update next time!

30th May 2009

2009-05-30T21:47:00.003+08:00

Time pass very fast.
Now is already going to the month end of May of 2009.
Haiz.
What have I achieved so far in life.
I got no idea.
Seem very weak and useless.
I just feel like giving up sometime.
Nothing goes according to my way.
Feel so weak.

So many modules to catch up.
What I meant by catching up means doing extremely well.
I have to get into Uni.
To further improve my skills.

I got alot of dreams.
But there is one very important dream that I need to accomplish in my life.
That is the main priority on why I still live in this world.
I need to set up my own studio.
Make it big.
Make my movies big.
Last as long as a decade.
That would be more than enough.

I won't let any other stuffs to distract me.
I seemed to lose my focus since the start of last year.
I wanted everything so badly that I lose my own focus.

A story that I have thought of it.
Shall post it in summary form...

Every year, Easley will write letters to a girl named Kelsey. Both of them have known each others since young. On special occassion, both will actually exchange gifts to each others. They were very close to the extent that people called them as brother and sister.

Time passed in a glimpse of light. Both grew up. They still continued to write letters to each other. It was then, Easley realised that the person he loved the most was Kelsey. The person whom he wanted to stay forever with the most was her. Kelsey was a gorgeous girl since young till now. She got many suiters chasing after her, so he did not have the courage to confess to her. All these while, Kelsey have only treated him as one of her close friend.

But thing didn't turn up to be his way. Friends around him were married and some even have kids. At the age of 30, Easley is still single. The process of writing letters to Kelsey still continued on and on. He never fail to stop writing to her. The only thing that failed him was confession of his love.

All his friends and relatives around him adviced him to go find a new partner and to get settled down. Easley refused.

Loving someone for ages was very nice. But not telling the other party was very painful. But the most painful incident striked one day.

Easley bought some flowers and a card to a cementry.

He knelt down and cried. He placed the card next to a tombstone and left the place. Inside the card was written, "Sorry Kelsey, I love you."

He went to Kelsey house to collect some of her belongings. It was at this moment when he saw Kelsey's diary. He opened it and read the content inside it. As he kept reading, tears flow down from his cheek. Every letters written by Easley was still kept inside her drawer. All these while, Kelsey have always been loving Easley. But she did not express it out to him as she knew that her life will soon end due to her terminal stage of cancer.

Easley was so devastated that he collapsed, smiled with tears still flowing, and he passed away. Inside his mind, he told himself, "Kelsey, I will come and find you no matter where you go."

The end.
Does it sound abit long winded?
If so, please comment on it.
Coz I need to submit a finalized proposal on a story by this tuesday.
Sian sia.
Hope this story is ok bah.
Does it have a good twist?

Comment.
Thanks!

So now, I shall proceed on doing my Web Design homework.
Blog next time bah. :)

2009-05-08T00:20:00.004+08:00

Never in my whole entire life that I ever like this kind of feeling before.
It's a feeling of a leader.

People who I have lost before.
People who I have helped them before.
Maybe not much of help.
But after so many months in this industry.
And so many people coming in and go.
The road to recruitment journey is fun.
Get to know more people.
Even though they didn't contribute anything.
Because I don't need them to contribute anything.
All I need is when next time I need help,
they could come and assist me.
Let's keep in contact as long as possible.

In life, I always like to categorize things.
Not because I am discriminating people.

The first group is my brothers group.
Although it's been ages since I last meet out with them,
I always remembered them.
Shaun Sim
Louis Neo
Jun Jie
Jun Hao
Jian Yang
Yong Kuang
Nigel
Chein Yie
Lionel
and last but not least, Me.

Almost close to 4 years of bonding.
Hope to keep contact soon.
Must make sure I attend all of their wedding dinner.
Hahs.
Then if need help in terms of designing the whole event, please remember to look for me.
I will give special discount.
Haha.

Second group of people is my cousin.
Ng Li Hui.
Know her for like close to 5 years le.
See her from Primary school till secondary school and now, JC.
Though didn't contact much,
hope the relationship as what we so called the 'cousin' won't break off.
Haha.
Anyway, all the best in your studies.

Third group of people is my organization.
Though some left, or inactive for sometime,
I still will regard you as my buddy.
You have helped me alot in one way or another.

Lionel
Kenny
Xiao Qian
Prescilla Lee
Stephanie Lim
Fabian
Sabriya Soh
Magdalena
Clara
Izzuddin
Sarah
Aini
Zaahid
Clive
And last but not least, the newly joined people...
Shall see who will last till their last breathe.

Also have to count those
Mr Keith
Mr Jason
Mr Henry
Mr Joseph
Mr Kenny
Mr Haryanto
And many many more.

I see different groups of people.
And I also realised one thing.
The road is seriously tough.
But is very meaningful and memorable.
Will definitely include into my movies in future.
CastZ!

I will need help from these group of people in future for my Animation life...

Anyway, just to update.
I am happy for yesterday.
Coz went for the Director List Ceremony.
It was quite a simple one.
But yeah, I improved.
Previously, I got 22nd in my course.
Guess my GPA was really lously.

But now my ranking have improved by abit.
Got 15th in the course.
GPA for sem 2 has improved quite alot.
Haiz.
But is not what I wanted.
Coz, I can do better than that.

I am now aiming for the scholarship to go overseas Uni in future.
So of course, my GPA must be at least 3.8 and above.
Very stress.
But got no choice.
Since I have already go halfway through le.
Must chiong le.
Got time, I shall post the picture we took with the director.
Now I don't have the pic with me yet.
Haha.
Sorry.

Anyway, so far all the modules covered so far.
I only find that 3D Animation and 3D Modelling are quite hard for me to absorb.
Maybe the tutorial was very fast.
And I don't have enough sleep.
Been sleeping in lecture.
Haha.

This sem de modules got
2D Animation
3D Animation
3D Modelling
Web Design 1
Drawing 3
Story

So far so good.
Planning to get all As for my modules.
At least a B+.
I can't afford any B+ and below.
Coz, now I am fighting for GPA to be at least 3.8.
Yeah!!!

So next up will be my position.
Been going circle all these times.
Sick of it le.
This time round is once and for all le.
After that, I want to take a break first.

Ok le.
Nothing much to update.
It's been ages since I blogged.
So this time round will talk alot.
Haha.
Like writing essay sia.
Anyway, go do my Web Design thing.
BB!!!

haiz...

2009-04-27T00:04:00.002+08:00

Haiz.
Time is running out for me.
How come it seem to be keep repeating the cycle over and over again.
What is wrong with my method?
I changed and improved some.
What went wrong again?
Why do I still stuck at the same place for so many times.
Why!
Why!
Why!

It seem so big yet so small.
It seem so many yet so inactive.
It seem so fast yet so slow.

Is just an illusion or what.
But even if that's the case.
Preseverance is the key.
Hardworking is also another key.
Calmness is another one.
But I applied all.
It still the same.
The energy level is no longer the same as previous le.
Wanted to give up.
But I won't give up.

Because I made a promise to someone indirectly.
I want to let that person see my status.

Academically, I did quite ok for my Year 1.
But now is Year 2.
No longer like last time le.
Must really plan out my time well.
What is happening to me?
I seem so weak.

So weak that I am speechless.
The game is so difficult.
I see others succeed.
Some failed.
But why I keep belonging to the failure type?
What is the key to succeed?
Can someone give me tips to unlock?

The weaks are so weak.
Why?
Because they have no dreams in their life.
No opinions.
A follower is always a follower if he/she does not have opinions.
So weak.
Such weaklings don't deserve to be my list.
Why?
Because they are weak.
WEAK!

Time flies past pretty fast.
Now already 18 years old le.
Soon, I will see some of my friends going to NS.
Soon, I will see some of my friends getting married.
Soon, I will see some of my friends celebrating their 1st child birthday party.
Soon, I will see myself graduating from NYP.
Soon, I will see some of my friends doing extremely well in their academic.
Soon, I will see some of collegues getting their car.
Soon, I will see my friends getting their license.

Soon...
Soon, the friendship will break.
Soon, the game will end.
Soon, the beginning of new life will begin.
Because everything has a beginning has an end.
When is the end?
When is the beginning?
The answer to it is ACTION.

Leaders' Recognition Night

2009-04-16T01:46:00.004+08:00

This is the 1st Leaders' Recognition Night event in our company seminar hall.
Actually it happened on 14th April 2009.
Time flies.
I see my organisation increasing in size.
That's good and bad too.
Hahs.
So we took alot of photos before the seminar starts.

Sabriya and Stephanie

Stephanie, Me, Ken, Ruby and Sabriya.

Sabriya and Me.

Sabriya and Clara.

Sabriya and Ken.

Zaahid, Ken, Stephanie, Me, Nurul, Sabriya, Sarah, Ruby, Mr Haryanto.

Nurul, Ken and Zaahid.

Zaahid, Ken, Stephanie, Me, Nurul, Sabriya, Sarah, Ruby and Mr Haryanto.

Sarah, Me and Nurul.

Stephanie, Sabriya, Me and Ken.

2009-03-22T00:09:00.005+08:00

Just feel super unfair about some issue.
Don't know how to explain it out.
But just feel so darm unfair.
Haiz.

Am I supposed to be like that from the start?
Or is god trying to test my patience?
Or is trying to test my decision?
What is it?
I can't figure it out what is it?

So mysterious.
I hate this feeling.
Missed 3 turns le.
When is going to be my turn?
Super pissed off with myself.
Haiz.

Nvm.
Control my emotions.
What's the purpose of fighting if there is someone who is not fighting together with us?
I find it unfair to me.
Haiz.
Nvm.

Just voicing it out.
To make me feel better.
People who work darm hard don't seem to get the rewards.
Why is that so?
I don't understand.
I really don't understand.

People who put in so much effort, yet turns out to be nothing.
People who don't even put in abit of effort gets the most.
I HATE IT!

I wanted to give up.
But I just can't give up.
I die die also won't give up.
I promised someone that I will do it.
I got to do it.
Though physically I got other stuffs I need to do.
But haiz.
What happen!
Tsk...

2009-03-20T00:52:00.005+08:00

Went to Sentosa today alone today.
Coz at first I was supposed to meet the rest early at around 9.30am.
But I was too tired le.
So I overslept.
End up I went to Sentosa myself.

So when I reached there, was like about almost 2pm le.
WTH right.
But nvm.
I only go out today to relax myself before I start to do some serious stuff.
So this was the group photo that we took before Melissa left.
Got Yong Kuang, Jian Yang, Shaun, Nigel, Me, Melissa, Jun Hao, Jacklyn, Crystal and Chien Yie.

So this is Shaun and Melissa.
You see behind.
That's Nigel.
Prank again.
Haha.
Lols.

This is Nigel and Melissa.

So after when Melissa left, we started to play with sand.
So I was the unlucky one la.
Been buried under the sand.
Then they took a photo too.
But was kind of warm and shiok feeling when I was buried with the sand.
Haha.

This is me.
Don't know who took this photo.
I guessed I was sitting on the so called 'bench'.
I looked darm weird.
Was suntanning ourself under the hot sun together with Shaun, Jun Hao and Chien Yie.
It was quite fun.
But I was not really been affected.
I didn't get sun burnt.
Lucky sia.
Oni Nigel, Chien Yie, Jun Hao and Jacklyn got sun burnt until very bad.

Look at Chien Yie.
From this photo, he looked as if he was naked.
Haha.
Then he was trying to cover his private part.
Lols.
Joking la.

This is Yong Kuang.
Nice hair style of him.
Haha.

This is Jacklyn and Crystal.
Cheese!

So this is Jun Hao.

He looked pretty stunned when someone took a photo of him.
Haha.
I guessed.

So all the time, we were playing either water volley ball or beach soccer.
It was pretty fun and tiring.

It's been so long since I last touch sea water.
The last time I touched was like in secondary 3 during the SL training camp in St John Island.

Super salty sia.

And thirsty too.

So we ended at around 7pm before we went to wash out.
Then we went to Vivo City to have our dinner.

Went to eat at Carl's Junior.
Hope I didn't spell wrongly.

Haha.
It was very expensive.
But worth eating it.
Coz the burger was like darm large.
Somemore I upsize everything.

Cost about $12.90.
And the drink can be refilled somemore.

After that, we went window shopping for awhile.
Before we finally called it a day.

Actually wanted to ton.
But I got something on the next day.
So I don't want to tired myself so much.
Ok la.
That's all for today.
BB!

result for overall Year 1

2009-03-19T01:36:00.002+08:00

Haiz.
Didn't do quite well for my Poly year 1.
Sian sia.

Got 3.481 for overall de GPA.
I wanted to get 3.6 and above.
Nvm.
Year 2, I will be aiming for 3.6 and above.

Die die must achieve it.
Haiz.

So far got nothing else to blog.
Recently been busy with something else.

Everything in VE is doing pretty fine.
Just that due to my Poly OGL thingy, I got not much time left till end of this month.
Haiz.
No matter what, i won't give up till I achieve it.
Because I gave a promise to someone.
Someone whom I respect alot.
I will prove it to you one day.

So now, back to topic.
Got nothing much to say for today.
Super tired all I can say.
But got to keep pressing on.
One day, the dream will come true.
Yeah!

Last day of IT fair

2009-03-16T00:39:00.003+08:00

Its been ages since I last blogged le.
haha.
Anyway, back to VE recently to do some of my stuff.
So went for the House Of Red Grouping today.
Learnt alot of new things.
Lazy to explain every single details of what happen.
But it was fun.

So after the grouping, me, Stephanie and Sabriya, my new downline, went to IT fair to buy something.
Ok.
Let's introduce to you Sabriya.
She is super funny sia.
Can be a joker.
Know her for like 3 days.
Not bad.
She can be the next 'Mr Bean'.
Haha.
Her laughters can be as loud as loud hailer.
haha.
Joking la.
Too exaggerating le.

So before we went.
Me, Sabriya, Stephanie, Izzuddin and Mr Fendi were taking a photo.
It was so lame lor.
I mean Sabriya likes taking photos hor.
Cute sia.
But too bad, some got to bend down.
haha.
Joking joking.
No offence.

So this was the picture that we took somewhere near Eunos MRT station.
This is the first one.
Very sudden.

This is the second one.
I looked darm retarded.
Izzuddin was like closing his eyes.
Mr Fendi was almost cropped away as well as for Stephanie.
Seems that I am the centre of attraction.
Haha.
Lols.
This is the third one that we took near the staircase.
Sibei random again.
Almost everyone was cropped off except for me.
I smiled like an idiot sia.
Wth lor.

This is the last one that we took.
All cropped except for Izzuddin and Stephanie.

Well, kind of fun.
haha.

But Sabriya was super weird sia.
Anyway, that's good.
Hope she can finish her training asap.
So can start going for appointments!

Let's hope everyone in this photos will go for the overseas trip incentives.
Yeah.
Left abit more to qualify.
haha.

The next person, i am going to help is Sabriya.
You are gonna hit your ME by end of this month.
And it will be done!
Yeah man!

Ok.
That's all for today.
Quite late le.
Going sleep now.
BB!

Forget to update one thing.
I bought my EXTERNAL HARDDRIVE LE!
320GB at the cost of $105.
IMATION brand de.
haha.
Yeah.

Stephanie and his brother brought memory card, card reader and speaker.
Sabriya brought speaker and thumbdrive.
Ok!
That's all for today le!

10th March 2009

2009-03-10T21:19:00.003+08:00

Don't know whether I should feel sad or happy?
Don't know whether I should feel excited or tired?
Just feel weird.
Why?

I also don't know.
It's been so long since I have such feelings.
What is happening to me?
It's my holiday.
And I should feel happy.
But why aren't I feeling happy?
I feel so strange?

Wanted to achieve alot of things in my 18th years of life.
Wanted to get a car of my own.
Wanted to chiong buffet every week.
But how come I can't see it?

I don't know how to explain.
Just weird.
Haiz.
Nvm.

I am not emo, definitely.
Just that, I just feel that it's not right.
What is bad may seem good.
What is good may seem bad.
So what is good and what is bad?
I got no answer to it.
Haiz.

Nothing much to blog for today.

2nd March, 18th Birthday!!!

2009-03-02T12:32:00.008+08:00

Happy Birthday to myself.
Finally turn 18.
Become adult le.
Lols.
haha.
Sound so lame.
Actually I am already glad that got brothers celebrating with my 18th Birthday.
At Suki Sushi.
Cool sia.
Its been ages since I went to Suki Sushi.

This is the 1st picture I took before we started to eat.

This is Jun Hao and Jun Jie. Giving me a weird present I have ever received.
Haha.
Joking.
They were actually playing with the foods itself.
Haha.

And this is me.
Don't think that I ate this.
This is just photo that they took for me.

A present that they gave me.

Haha.
Super funny sia.

All these were taken yesterday.
Went to Hougang Plaza yesterday night to eat Suki Sushi.

Got Shaun, Yong Kuang, Lionel, Chein Yie, Nigel, Jun Hao, Jun Jie, Cheryl and Desmond.

We actually ate from 6pm to 9pm.

Siok sia.
haha.

It's so been long since we got time to eat together for so long.
Haha.

So now, I am posting for today.
Nothing much to talk about even though today was my birthday.
Sian sia.

Let's look at the ranking positions in terms of who wish me first.

1st - Priscilla Chen who wished me yesterday because she couldn't turn up for the Suki thingy.

2nd - Antony who wished me at 12am sharp this morning.

3rd - Yao Jun who wished me online yesterday ard 12.30am.

4th - Jie Kai who wished me online yesterday ard 12.45am.

5th - Lionel who wished me at 1.45am

6th - Stephanie who wished me at 3.55am.

7th - Ng Li Hui who wished me at 6.44am.

8th - Louis who wished me at 6.58am.

9th - Mr Fendi who wishd me at 9.57am

10th - David who wished me through blog tag at 10.30am.

11th - Boon Yik who wished me at 10.37am

12th - Yong Kuang who wished me 12.23pm through MSN.

13th - Ai Mei, my primary school friend who wished me at 12.45pm through MSN.

14th - Jian yang, my primary school friend as well as my brother who wished me

at 2.48pm.

The top 14 for this year.
haha.
Super boring.

So just blog this for fun.
Haha.

Just to let everyone who viewed this blog to know.
I won't be online for this week.
Going to reformat my Laptop today.
Anything, please msg me in hp.

BB!

End of Year 1 of my Poly Life

2009-02-26T20:32:00.004+08:00

Yeah!
Finally finish my Studio Project 2 le.
Below are some of my artpieces for my Portfolio.
I know it's not very nice.
But got to understand, I am year 1.
Will definitely improve way better in my Year 2 onwards.
Yeah!

Ok.

That's all I got to talk for today.
Go and enjoy awhile first before I get serious again for my VE stuff.
Yeah!

Siok!

2nd last day of Year 1 Sem 2

2009-02-25T22:00:00.002+08:00

Finally, I shall declare the end of Year 1 Sem 02.
Although today is considered the last day, I still count it as today.
Coz I have done everything.
Not perfect but ok.

Just that, I have learnt alot of lessons during the whole entire journey in my Poly Year 1.
Learn how to think independantly.
Ms Gail was right.
I should have my way of thinking.
Should defend my own stand.
Shouldn't change my design just because someone critics is different from yours.
Each and individual of us have their own special skills as well as styles.
I haven't finalise my style of drawing and designing yet.
But I will still press on and learn.

I swear that I am going to be a director in one of the best animation movie in the world.
And director for certain movies.

Anyway, that's my aspirations in the near future if everything moves on smoothly.

Also learn a lesson of not to be so rush.
Today, I went to Sunshine Plaza alone to print.
Guess how much I spend?
Over $30 plus just for printing.
Sibei sian sia.

Actually i should be spending like $20 plus.
The rest were due to the unwanted stuffs.
Like reprinting again.
Coz of the quality.
And also the resolution.
Sian.

One piece cost about $2 for Art Card.
After spending like $32 in one shop.
Then I saw Clement.

Then I realised got one shop that print even cheaper for Art Card.
1 piece was like $1.50.
I was like WTH!!!!

But nvm.
I go reprint again for some pieces.
Coz I went to use the MAC provided by that shop to enhance my work agian.
Haiz.
Next time, i should go test print one piece first before printing the rest.
Sian.

Anyway, finally done with everything.
Got to prepare my MM plan for next month.
Although I won't be going to VE everyday.
I got plans on how to hit my MM.
And I must hit it no matter what.

Ok.
That's all for today.

2009-02-24T23:36:00.002+08:00

Well, shall comment on what had happened today.
Can say quite bad luck.
Sitting inside the train was already boring enough for me without my psp.
Never did I expect the train to stop halfway.
Fortunately, it stopped at Yew Tee MRT station.
Heard from the speaker that there was some faults in the engines of the train.
Not many people were listening to it at first.
Until when we realised that the train have already stopped at the particular station for 10min, I think.

Then, we started to see people starting to get up from their seats.
The staffs inside the train tried to open the door so we can get out.
Abit of chaos.
But not as bad as what I think it was.

So we waited outside.
People started to take photos of what happened.
Haha.
At first, I found it quite silly to take photos in such a scenario.
But when the staff told us that we got to wait for another 20 min before the next train arrived.
I was like... WTH!
I still got project I need to chiong at home.
Haiz.
Some people started to leave the platform.
Haiz.
Sian.
If the train have stopped at CCK.
At least I can take Bus 172.
But it stopped at Yew Tee.
Sibei sian sia.
Wanted to walk to CCK.
But after second thoughts, I decided to wait.

So since I got nothing better to do while waiting for the train to be pulled away,
I took out my hp and snap a few photos lo.
haha.
Kind of bored.

I got to admit.
The staffs were fully prepared for such scenario.
Fortunately, no one was injured during the process.

Took this photo in a special angle.
Kind of weird angle.
But is cool, right?
Maybe I can paint this for my next portfolio.
You never know.
Haha.

Another photo of it.
Train was still there.
Haiz.
Lucky, at that point of time, the rain had stopped.
If not, can't imagine how chaotic it is going to be.

Due to the long waiting time for the next train,
people started to leave the platform.

So now, the train was pulled off by another train.
They called it as 'Car Rescue'.
Lols

So after the train was being pulled off, we have to wait for another 5 min before the next train comes.
Well, it was quite long.
But nothing bad happened.
Except for the sound that the train have made when it was being pulled off.
It shocked alot of people.
At first, we thought it was going to explode at some part.
haha.
Watch too many drama series le.
haha.

After that, went home to continue touch up for my DVD cover and my Poster.
Finally, it's done.
That's why I got time to blog.
Left with tomorrow, to do my printing at Sunshine Plaza.
Hope everything runs smoothly.
And I am done with my Poly Year 1!
Yeah!
Finally going to be Year 2 le.
haha.

Just can't wait to graduate out from NYP.
Haiz.
Lols.

Preparation for my Portfolio

2009-02-16T00:31:00.003+08:00

Managed to do a few pieces of works for my Portfolio.
Seemed to me that this time round, I am focusing more on my portfolio rather than my animation.

haha.
But don't worry.
I only focus on animation in school.
I will make sure I finish doing animation by this wed.
So that I got enough time to do my packaging.
Haiz.

Really hope I can do well for my Studio Project 2.
I think my storyboard for my SP2 is srewed up by me.
WTH sia.

Anyway, time passed pretty fast.
Going to end my Year 1 le.

But to me, I considered it as slow.
Coz, some of my secondary school friends have already become Year 2 le.
I mean J2 in JC.

Even Li Hui have become J1 le.
Hope she can do well in JJC.
Haiya.
She confirm can do well de la.
She so smart.
Not smart but tricky.

Happy Valentine's Day to everyone!

2009-02-14T23:41:00.004+08:00

Well, today was pretty boring staying at home at first.
Didn't do much for my Studio Project.
Went to SandStorm at JP to cut my hair.
It was quite expensive to me.
But reasonable price.
Got cut, wash, blow and style.
Cost about $20.90.
So before I go cut my hair.
Took a picture of it after bathing.
Looks abit messy.
But is long, you see.
So called miss my long hair.
But no choice.
Got to cut it.

Actually, the hair stylist adviced me to go add some coloring on some part of my hair.
But I don't have enough money.
If not, I want to go do some hair treatment.
Yeah.
Haha.
Maybe when I have enough money bah.

Then after cutting, I went to meet Shaun at JE library.
Got do abit of my Studio Project stuff.
The rest of the time were slacking.

Then both of us went to meet Louis at CCK.
Went to Subway to eat.
Both Louis and I ordered 1 foot long.
Cool sia.
Coz we were kind of hungry.
Didn't have much for lunch also.
So got to eat darm lot.
Haha.
Paiseh Louis.
Once in awhile eat that shouldn't be a problem to you.
The most run a few more runs around the track lor.
Haha.
Can want lah.
Haha.

So the three of us walked around CCK.
Nothing much to do.
Wanted to watch movie.
But it starts very late.
So went to arcade and take alook.
Haiz.
It's been ages since I went to arcade.

Then still got time.
We went to Mac Donald.
Find a place to sit and talk cork.
Saw Sheng Yang and his friends also at Mac.
Chit chatitng also.
Talk until like 10.30pm.
Then we decided to call it a day.
Haha.

It's been so long since I last met Louis.
So got alot of topics to talk.

After that, we went home.
That's how we celebrated our Valentine's Day.
Haha.
Lame sia.
Brothers mah.
Haha.

This is the hair I had before.

And this is the one I had now. Does it looks weird?
I guess it is bah.
So ugly, right.
Some will ask why go take photos.
Sound so despo.
But I am not.
Okay!
I am just keeping a record of hairstyles I have.
Next year, I will change another hair style again.
Must try out new things mah.
Haha.
Lols.
Joking.

Trying hard to follow up on Ms And for the Calstar.
Hope can close.
To contribute abit to Mr Keith 3rd Stage.
It's been so long since I went back to VE le.
Ha.

Anyway, Happy Valentine's Day to everyone.
To all couples, last long for your relationships.
For friends, stay contact as long as possible.
For Brothers, stay contact also.
For Cousin, stay in contact too.
Haiya, stay contacts to those who knows me.
Yeah.
Go do my studio Project now.

2009-02-08T22:43:00.002+08:00

Haiz.
6 modules have finally ended.
Now left with one final module for my Year 1.
And that is my Studio Project 2.
This time round.
I die die also must get distinction.

Previously, for my Studio Project 1, I got a B.
What a letdown to myself.
But not this time anymore.

Lols.

The topic is Ricesack.
1st criteria is to do a storyboard for the RiceSack.
And my topic is either on the stage or in the office.

And I got to do 5 different storyboards.
Haiz.
Now I got 3 more to do.

Afterwhich, I need to animate it.
At least 5 seconds to 30 seconds.
Means I got to draw like crazy when it comes to that part.
Haha.

Then my 3rd criteria is to do a packaging.
Must also include Title and CD Design.
That part will be quite tedious for me.
Haiz.

Last but not least will be my Portfolio presentation.
This time round I must do well in terms of my works.
Need alot of guidances from the pro.
Haha.

As for the Mural Painting.
I didn't turn up for today's one.
Coz I was too tired.
Haha.
But I did go for yesterday de.
It was quite fun.
But not really called Mural Painting.
Is more like Wall Painting.

All we need to do were to like paint a design onto the specific walls.
It was tiring especially for me.
Coz I was the only guy yesterday and a group of girls.
Got around 12 of us.
Well I like the lunch.

At first I thought it was packed lunch.
But it turned up to be pastas.
I guessed Ms Wendy treated us at the nearby resturarent.

Anyway, the place we painted at was Water Venture.
Located at East Coast Park.
Is the place where people go there for windsurfing.
Cool right!

Ok.
I think that's about it for today.
Got to continue my Storyboard le.
Must do extremely well for my project!

As for VE,
I am sorry to Mr Keith for fighting his 3rd Stage of his Car.
I will try my best to contribute abit.

That's all for today.
Yeah.

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone!

2009-01-28T00:44:00.002+08:00

Today I must post man!
Actually supposedly is on the 初二.
But I think it went past 12am le.
Nvm.
Still ok.

Went to lots of people house to bai nian yesterday.

First, i went to Jacklyn house, together with Jun Jie, Shuan, Crystal, Melissa, Boon Yik and her boyfriend.
So that was the first time where I learnt how to play majong.
Super blur at first.
But got a hang of it after playing like 3 times, I guess.
But is still quite blur inside my head now.
haha.

Anyway, after that, we went up to Jacklyn room at L2.
We then started playing 'Ban Luck'.
Didn't win nor lose.
So so bah.
If I am not wrong.
I left around 3.30pm after having some steamboat with Jacklyn they all.

Then, I took Bus 333 to go to MayFlair Condo at JEE.
That was Fabian house.
Went up awhile together with Xiao Qian, Stephanie and Prescilla.
Prescilla was late again.
LOLS.
Standard de.
Same goes for Boon Yik for just now de house visiting at Jacklyn house.

So back to fabian house.
We didn't have time to play poker.
Coz we were busy eating goodies.
Eat lots of craps, I guessed.
I like the 'Ba Gua'.
Best sia.

Lucky, Xiao Qian still remembered.
She invited me to tag along with her to go visit her relative house at Chua Chu Kang.
So her dad drove her family members and I to her grandparent house.
Sit outside the lorry was cool.
Especially when it was traveling along the Express Way.
Sibei siok.
Coz the wind is blowing.
But sad case is it messed up my hair.

So when we reached there.
It was very crowded.
Luckily I know some of the people down there.
I know Shi Ying, which is Xiao Qian sister.
Coz same secondary school as me.
Then I know Serena which happened to be there too.
And I know her small uncle also.
Coz I have went to their house for appointment mah.
So shouldn't be a problem.
At there, was quite stress at first.
Coz, I don't really know them well.
I guessed I am only interested in the majong.
Xiao Qian was playing majong with them.
Haha.
She lost.
Although got some round she can win if she played properly.
But too bad.
haha.

So after that, I need to leave around 6plus.
So Xiao Qian dad drove me back to JE again.
I took Bus 157 to Wei Yang house.
haha.
Very fun.
Go so many place in such a short period of time.

So I was the first to reach there.
Went to his house and played 'Dead for Alive'.
That was fun.
haha.

So around 7plus, Lionel, Melissa, Crystal, Jacklyn, Boon Yik and her boyfriend reached.
We then went to play 'Ban Luck' again.
This time my luck turned well.
Being the banker for 5 times.
I managed to win 4 times, getting 21 straight.
Siok right.
My hokkien not very good.
So if you don't understand.
Can come ask me.
Haha.

So I guessed around 9pm sharp.
I still remembered.
Coz the rest want sabo me to be banker.
Unfortunately, thanks to Melissa and Jacklyn who cut the cards.
I managed to win.
And won around $10.

So after that, Wei Yang sent us back to Chinese Garden MRT station.
Thanks Wei Yang!

We went to Lionel house.
By the time we reached there.
It was around 9.30plus.
So went there to eat again.
Eat alot of craps.
After that, start to play 'In-Between'.
Haiz.
Sad to say.
I started losing my money from there.
Got win and lose.

But fortunately, I know my limits.
In the sense that I didn't really lost.
Coz, I started out with $0.50.
Then got win here and there.
But ended up, I lost all.
So I didn't earn nor lost.
Haha.
Quite smart right!
Yeah!

OK.
Anyway, that's all for that day.
We left Lionel house around 1130pm.
Took Bus 172 back to my house.

So that's all for that whole day.
Pretty cool.
Supposedly I am watching movie with Li Hui.
The Wedding Game.
But been postponed.
Coz, her mum is treating her watch Red Cliff 2.
So nvm.

Ok.
Anyway, that's about it.
Thanks Jacklyn, Fabian, Xiao Qian, Wei Yang and Lionel for inviting me to your house.
If not, I will feel super bored again.
haha.

This coming friday I am also going to one of my Primary school teacher house, Ms Ang.
And Saturday also.
Haha.
So Good Night!
Later today, which is Wednesday le.
Got Maya test.
And I haven't even study.
Shit.
Must go study le.
BB!

Blog again next time.

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone!

2009-01-26T14:28:00.006+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone!

恭喜发财！
财源廣进！
一帆风顺！
五福临门！
事业顺利！
年年有余！
学业进步！
步步高升！
身体健康！

Ok.
That's all I know.
haha.
My Chinese has deteoriated le.
Haiz.
Must improve on it.
If not, next time if got debating with Li Hui.
Confirm lose her again.
Anyway, quite bored staying at home.
People going to relatives house to 拜年.
And I stay at home to do homework.
Really got no life.
Even my brother also go people house to 拜年.
Well, not that I don't want to go.
I don't really know his friend.
Haiz.
Nvm.
Stay at home do speed painting bah.
haha.

Wanted to post something pretty interesting.
This is one of the first face painting using photoshop.
Got nothing better to do at home.
So I painted her face.
haha.
Hope is not ugly.
I mean.
I tried my best to adjust it.
This picture was taken, if I am not wrong, when she was in sec 2 bah.
I think so.

I am also including this to my portfolio too.

Comment when view.
Thanks.

4th post for Year 2009

2009-01-25T13:08:00.003+08:00

Shall post about yesterday activity.
I woke up pretty late.
Sian.
Don't know why nowadays wake up so late.
Must kick away this habit.
If not, not good for my health.
Haha.

Went out with Li Hui again.
Went to Orchard to shop.
But before that, we went to Cineleisure to watch movie.
Love Matters was interesting.
The story captured the guys attentions especially.
Coz, most guys understand the languages of sex.
Super funny.
Was like keep laughing from the start.
Maybe is the camera angles also.

Then Li Hui was like keep signaling me to stop laughing.
But I guessed, not only me.
The rest was laughing worst than me.
She didn't laugh much.
Haha.
Except for some part.
But guess she don't understand the language.
Haha.
But seriously, I will recommend people to watch that show.
Is interesting.
Original concept.
Nice.
Cool too.

Then watch finish le, we walked around Cineleisure.
I brought a bag which cost about $50 plus.
Wanted to buy some clothes.
But I guessed better not bah.
Scared not enough money later.
Anyway, same procedures.
Seem to me debating with her about logics has become a habit.
The whole shopping journey was like debating.
Playing with words.
haha.
She's still the same as last time.

Then we went to Taka.
Only level 1.

Coz, both of us guessed there is nothing much to shop there.
Unless we got $.
Haha.

Then we walked to Far East.
Actually I also don't know why we went to there.
We just walked around aimlessly.
The weather was quite ok.
Lucky didn't rain.
Actually by that time, is around 7plus.
I was like quite hungry le.
She was hungry.
But she don't want to eat.
Which is wth.
I am so hungry and she don't want to eat.
But after that, managed to convince her to eat.
Haiz.
Convincing girl to eat is not my type.
So we went to Food Replubic to eat.
Did I spell correctly?
Hope not.
haha.
Forget how to spell le.
Anyway, we ordered Hokkien Mee again.
That was nice.
Just that the price went up.

After that, I guessed we went back to JP again.
She went to JP to buy some chocolate.
OMG.
You know what.
She has been coughing since last monday.
And is cold cough somemore.
Still want eat chocolate.
Can't stand you sia.
Still say I got no 'ren xing'.

Then we went to soem shop to take alook.
Wanted to buy Sony earpiece.
But later I realised there isn't a need to buy.
Wanted to buy tie.
But was quite indecisive.
Haiz.

Then went to printer shop and take alook.
Haiz.
Seriously, if she is not going to JC.
I confirm will ask her to come to take alook at my company.
Seriously, she used to be a promoter for Brothers printer.
From there, we start to debate again over printer.
I was purposely testing her skills.
She was pretty good.
She know how to sell her way of presentation.
She know the stuffs well.
Even the staffs at there also don't know as much as her do.
I mean she also test the staff down there by acting like a customer.
But we didn't buy.
Just looking around.

But don't worry la.
I will definitely buy brothers printer from you.
Just that not at the moment.
Coz, I got not enough money to spend if I were to buy.
And I don't need printer for the time being.
Not bad.
You did convince me somehow or what.
Did quite alot of research as in the spec of different printers.
Plus, i admired your characterisitcs.
Independant learner.
You know the reason why she went to take alook at the printer shop.
Not because she wanted to buy or test the people down there.
She was just doing some market research.
Which is wth.
OMG.
Like this also can.
Strong sia.

Don't worry.
I swear I will bring you to my office one fine day.
Haha.

Other than that.
Was pretty weird of me.
Coz, seriously, although we went to Orchard and Bugis for these 2 days.
We didn't really shop.
Most of the time we were like chatting while walking.

One strange thing I found out from her.
Is that, she don't like to sit in the train.
She prefer standing.
Haha.
Strange right.

And I also realised.
Going out with her seriously will die if you got no money.
You know everything was like I pay de.
Nvm.
I take it as you are my cousin for almost 5 years.
Once in awhile bah.
But not everytime.
If not, I will be broke again.
And you know, my angbao money was going to be 0 again soon.
And I haven't even brought my CNY clothes.

Nvm, maybe this year different.
I only brought a pair of black shoe from Goldlion and a bag from Eight Percent.
Haha.
And watched two movies for my CNY.

So not bad bah.
Take it as my CNY this time was spent with Li Hui bah.

Anyway, wanted to take photo with her.
Since is like once in a moon I went out with her.
But she refused.
Wth sia.
Keep saying she don't have photogenic face.
Nvm.
Haha.

Oh ya, do remember my birthday present hor.
Don't worry.

For you birthday present, I will give you a surprise.
haha.
By the way, what's the topic this time round.
Don't tell me is moon again.

Wanted to take your photo and use photoshop and edit.
haha.
But nvm.

This is the one of the present I gave her 3 years ago if I am not wrong bah.
Though the drawing was lously.
But not bad for a Sec 2 standard.
Plus, this is pure drawing.
No photoshop is being used.
And is in A2 size.
Can't imagine she still keep it in good condition.
Asked her to take a photo of it and send to me.
Coz, I need it for my portfolio.
Maybe go and edit and touch up.
Especially the human anatomy and the colors used.

Anyway, good luck for your piano exam this year.
Do well.
Don't let me down.
But not bad.

You know the reason why she go JC.
Is because she wanted to improve her English.
That's all.
Sound pretty weird right.
But unique.
Hope she can do well in JJC.
Keep in contact!

3rd post for Year 2009

2009-01-23T23:57:00.002+08:00

Well, today was quite a busy day for me.
Got to rush up alot of stuffs.
Typo final assignment, Maya 2nd Final assignment and also to chiong my animation.
But I managed to finish it.
Hope I can get A for the overall modules.

Before that, I went back to WWSS to pay visit to some of the teachers.
Well, the school changed alot.
Actually I wanted to meet the guy who beat my brother.
Not to lecture him or beat him back.
But to talk nicely to him.
Haiz.
Nvm.
Didn't have the chance to meet him.
Was quite rush for me.
Coz I got sch at 12pm.
Ended up I was late for like 45min.
But nvm.

After that, I went out with Li Hui to shopping.
Actually can say is she who pei me bah.
And before that, don't mistaken.
We are not bgf.
She is just my god sister.
For almost like 4 years plus bah.
Can say childhood friend bah.
haha.

Anyway, we went to Bugis.
I was late.
Paiseh.
Haha.
Supposedly I wanted to buy alot of stuffs.
But I was quite indecisive bah.
End up I only brought one drawing pencil in Art Friends.
Then after that, we decided to watch movie at JP.

We watched the 'Bride War'.
Well, starting I didn't quite like the idea of watching that kind of movie.
Coz is not my type bah.
But maybe somehow or what, she convinced me to watch.
So I watched lor.

Ended up, it was pretty nice.
Most of the plots was quite obvious to me.
In the sense that from their camera angles and movements, I know what is coming next.
So to me, I didn't find it quite nice.
Is only the part whereby both bride are having cold wars with each other.
That part was interesting.
The ending also not bad.

So by the time it ends, is about 11pm.
The show was pretty short.
But is supposed to be like that bah.
haha.

Anyway, it's been quite a long time since I went out with Li Hui bah.
She changed her hair style.
Look funny to me.
Haha.
Nice time going out with her.

Hope she don't mind me nagging alot when we were at Bugis street.
Coz down there was like super squeezy.
And I don't really like.
Plus, the weather was super hot.
And I was like keep complaining and arguing with her about the facts and statistics.

Anyway, that's the end for today.
After relaxing myself for today.
Is time to get back to serious stuff.
I still got lots of stuffs for me to do.
Got drawing assignments, animation stuff, maya test next week and storyboard.
Got to go le.
That's all for today!

2st post for Year 2009

2009-01-21T21:14:00.002+08:00

Haha.
It's been long time since I have blogged.
Chinese New Year is coming soon.
And for god sake, I haven't had time to buy my new year clothes.
Only managed to brought one pair of 'Goldlion' black shoe which cost quite alot.
Haha.

You might ask why I spend so much on that.
Comemon, I also need to relax abit right.
Can't be so thrifty to that extend right?
Somemore is CNY.
But don't worry.
Only for once every year lah.

I mean I will still buy clothes if got the money.
Other than that, I won't buy unless I grow big in size, which seems impossible.
Haha.

Anyway, today was so called an Award Presentation for those Year 1 students.
I can say, I am quite lucky to get into the top 15% of the whole cohort.
If I am not wrong, I got 22.
But it looked weird to me.
Coz, the top three people got 4 for their GPA.
Meaning 7 distinctions.
Super crazy.
Don't even know how they managed to do it.
I got 3.385.
Which is quite average to some people.
Haiz.
This looks weird to me.
Anyway, a pad to my shoulder.
At least I managed to get into the top 15%.
Get into the Director list for recognition.

Not bad for the start.
But I guessed this sem, I won't be doing quite well.
I am expecting alot of distinctions for some modules.
But I think I am too overconfident le bah.
A simple test, I only get 12/20.
What the hell.
And it carries like 20% of the overall for that module.
Haiz.
What a letdown.

But I am going to specialise in Animation.
Sem 2 is coming to an end soon.
And Studio Project 2 is coming out.
That module, I die die also must get a Distinction.
So that my overall GPA can be pulled up.
Hope everything runs smoothly bah.

As for VE.
I have been busy quite lately for my studies as well for my personal side.
My brother have been creating some troubles recently.
Haiz.
Don't know whether is gang problems or what.
Just that, whoever that beat my brother next time in school.
I am not going to let you off.
But don't worry.
I am not the type that use fighting to negotiate.
Which century are you people in now?
Now no more fighting le.
Is about the skills of communication.
The skills of playing with words.
The Art of Words.
If you want to play with me.
Just try me.
Haha.
No harm anyway.
Just to let you know the beauty of illusion.
And for god sake.

Only cowards joined gang.
Because they lacked of security.
Big size people doesn't mean they are strong.
Is about the mindset.
Ok la, no point talking big over here.

For those who managed to read my blog out of nowhere.
I am not trying to offend you guys.
Just that to remind some people.
Think before you act.
Don't think you guys are big.
Coz, to me.
Big is not the problem.
Coz, even the strongest has its weakness.
And I can tell.
Through the illusion of words.
Coz, that's the beauty of it.

Sibei long winded of me today.
Haha.
Maybe too long didn't blog le.
Now back to doing assignment mode...

1st post for Year 2009

2009-01-09T00:00:00.002+08:00

Enough of the craps le.
Now I understand the meaning of everything.
The fake is the pretendence.

Anyway, take it as I repay what I owe you.
As for studies, I lay my hands out of you.
I tried my best to help and assist you.
But it seem like there wasn't any changes.
I looked at the drawings you have drawn for storyboard.
I seriously got no comments.
I wondered whether you did it with intention or what.

Just to let you know, actually I don't like group work.
Unless the person I know has the similar characteristics as me.
He/she must know what I am thinking.
So we can draw similar stuffs.
But since you told me to group with you.
I group lor.
Anyway, I also wanted to help you.
Coz I looked at your storyboard grade.
Then wanted to help you.
But as time passed, I realised you did nothing.
I know you want to contribute but you don't know.
At least give ideas.

You know I almost wanted to give up on your studies.
But I can't.
Coz we still in the team.
That's why the remaining I do myself.
I let you go do what you want.

In class, I see you keep chatting, relaxing like nobody business.
Although I like storyboard, that doesn't mean I need to do everything.
You keep saying you busy.
Bullshit.
When you have free time like in class, you keep chatting.
You keep going for break.
Or if not, say tired, want to sleep.
Crap all the way.
I know you working.
I also working.
Is just an excuse.
If you know you are going to work this year to save up money.
Then last month, you should jolly well do your work.

I see you like that, I have already give up on you.
I looked at the attitudes.
Sucks all the way.
I know you don't like to draw in class.
Is an excuse.
Coz you are unable to overcome your fear.
I longed wanted to scold you.
Just that I got no time.

You are weak.
So weak that I got nothing to say to you.
You like to dare people so much.
Dare here and there.
I don't see why you don't like to dare yourself to improve your studies.
Coz you don't have goals.
You goal in SIDM is to waste time.
Chit chatting, relaxing, playing.
I know is good.
But you don't know how to manage your time.

I asked you to do final production board is because of one reason.
At least I want you to contribute.
Also the expression board.
But after I looked at your work.
It really dissappoint me.
Do you need to take such a long time to do such a FEW pieces.
And is not up to standard that pieces.
I looked at your drawing.
Is worst than last time.
Are you so busy that you got no time to draw?

If that's the case, you should at least do some during class.
Don't be like that le.
Everybody is busy.
You know how tiring it is to draw.
Is like as if I am doing a solo work.
Make no difference.
I just wanted to help you.
Yet you don't help yourself.

For portfolio.
Do you know the idea of doing speed painting for you is me.
I asked Clement to so called force you do spd paint to prepare u for portfolio.
You do halfway jiu say no time.
No mood.
Bullshit all the way.
We are trying to help you.

Now I see you like that, I don't know how to help you le.
In fact, i would say you don't deserved my help.
Unless I see you putting in effort.
Otherwise, i see no need in helping you.
Except for the storyboard.
I have given up on both the relationship and studies for you.

Although, you might say, I don't understand you at all.
The truth is, actually it is you that don't understand yourself.
You keep escaping the fact from the very start that you don't know how to draw.
True.
But it is up to you whether you want to change or not.
You did not, you just accept it.
You are lazy and full of rubbish.

People always said to be kind is to be cruel.
To me, I am too kind to you le.
But I also think there isn't a need for me to be cruel.

I only helped those that deserved my help.
If you deserved it, I will help you.

If you said, I have changed.
Maybe is you who did not change.
Anyway, next year, you are on your own.

Now I can say, i owe you nothing le.
I think we be friend instead of god sister or cousin thingy.
Coz, you don't suit to my cousin.

No because of what I have mentioned.
Is because of your characteristics in which you don't want to change.
If you want to succeed in life.
You got to overcome something that you don't like to do.

Just like last time when you are still in VE.
I asked you whether you want to still do in VE.
You said you want.
Actually in fact, you don't want.
Can tell.
That's why I don't want to force you.
I want you to join not because I got any benefits.
I want you to be as successful as me.
Your goals is not in design.
So I want you to focus in biz.
But you are reluctant.

You said your mum don't allow you to work.
True.
But is up to you whether you want to prove them wrong or not.
But you did not.
You are weak.

You got no opinions and goals in your life.
You are so daring when it comes to joking around.
But you are not as daring when it comes to studies and career.
That's why you are weak.

You are so weak.
Because you lack of aims.
You are just wasting your time.
Chit chatting and relaxing.

Nvm.
I have done what a good friend supposed to do.
The rest of the journey is up to you.
Few more weeks before we are no longer in the same class.
If ever we meet, I hope you can change into a better person.
Someone who is strong enough.
Got dreams and goals in life.

Sometime when you said you know what you are doing.
Are you sure?

Done with what I am supposed to do.

Back to studies.
Really disheartening for my result especially Digi.
Haiz.
I must do well for my DMD.
Storyboard must get Distinction!
Digi must get A!
Animation Fundamental must get A!
Drawing must get A!
Studio Project must get A too!
Typo and Maya, if can, must get A!
Die die this time de GPA must get at least 3.6.

As for VE, by end of this month.
I really die die must hit my MM.
If not, really disappointed with myself.

Countdown to 2009 in few hours time...

2008-12-31T14:47:00.002+08:00

A few more hours to the Year 2009.
Another year has passed.
What I have achieved this year?

What is my 2009 New Year Resolution?
The most important is I want everyone to stay healthy and be more mature.
Do well in your studies.
For those waiting for their 'O' Level result next month,
all the best.
Don't worry about the result.
If you have put in your best, the result will show.

For those waiting for their 'A' Level result also the same.
Don't worry.
Yeah.

As for my task in VE.
I want those in team to stay with me.
Don't leave my team.
Coz losing one member in a team is disheartening for me.
Stay strong next year.

Next year, new story will begin.
New life will be borned in the world.
New ideas, new technology and new world.

I sincerely apologized to the rest of my brothers.
I know today I am supposed to countdown the new year with you guys.
Sorry for not attending any events that you guys have organised.
I got no excuse to hide.
I have been busy with both my studies as well as in my work.
I don't know how to explain to you guys.
But I will try my best to attend to most of the events that you guys have organised next year.
Especially Chinese New Year.
Sorry bros.
Especially to Shawn.
I know you have been a good brother to me.
Sorry that I have let you down.
Sorry to Jun Jie.
Forget to wish you Happy Birthday this year.
Happy Belated Birthday, JJ!
Sorry Yong Kuang.
Sorry for all the last min stuff when you have already booked a place for me for the blood donation stuff.

Sorry for all the inconveniences that I had made this year.
I hope next year, we still can stay as brothers.
Yeah!

As for Mr Jason.
I really want him to achieve his Car Incentive by end of this year.
Miracles will happen if you try hard.
I believe it will happen.
Yeah!

I post now mainly because later at night I am attending the House Of Red Chalet at Pasir Ris.
Sad to say, this is my first time attending chalet as I have never attended a chalet before.
Sound pretty sad right.
haha.
That's why I can't wait for the chalet to start.
I don't know what will happen later.

Hope Xiao Qian can be promoted to MM.
Hope Prescilla and Stephanie can be promoted to ME.

I do hope you gals can help me out next month in terms of recruitments and b-role all this.
Coz I will be super busy with my studies.
But I will try my best to come down.
Thanks alot!

That's about all for the Year 2008.
Let's pray for success to happen next year.

Fernanders goals
To hit BM and his car incentive.
To hit at least 2 star BM by end of 2009.
To have at least 50 people in my team that are ready to fight by end of 2009.

To do extremely well for my studies.
To manage my time well.

To make as many new friends as possible.

Everything has a beginning has an end.
The end of 2008 and the beginning of 2009...

Conclude 2008, Begin 2009...

2008-12-27T21:17:00.003+08:00

Time passed.
Everything, everybody are changing.
4 more days left before the end of 2008.

What have I achieved so far for my year 2008?
I have done my best for my 'O' Level in 2007.
I do well in my CCAs.
I have such a good brothers celebrating New Year for 2008 with me.
Staying at Melissa house during Chinese New Year.
Going out to look for job.
Going out to shop during pay day.
Then going into my favourite course, Digital Media Design.
Getting 3.38 for my Sem 1 de GPA.

Promoting from SA to ME.
I am proud of myself.
I have even keep contact with my primary school friends.
All these I wouldn't have done if I am not in VE.
Although there have been some misunderstanding in between.
I will settle it if possible.

As for relationship, I got nothing else to comment.
Is my fault afterall.
Let's not discuss on it.

I got one god sister, Vanessa.
But there were alot of incidents that happened between both of us.
I got no ideas on how to help her.
I tried to help her.
But there is a limit to it.
If you don't want to help yourself, I got nothing to say.
Is not about whether I understand you or not.
Is about whether you dare to overcome your limitations.
At the end of the day, success is determined by you.
Not by me.

Anyway, things changed alot.
My 2008 was fun and memorable.
I will keep it recorded down.

My resolution for 2009 will be...
I want to hit my MM by end of this year.
I want to fight for my 1st stage of car incentive by June.
I want to have 50 people in my organisation before I turned 18.
I want to hit BM before I turned 18 too.
I want to spend like nobody business from next year onwards.
Don't worry la.
I will still control my spending.
I know what to spend on and what not to spend on.

I want my GPA for Sem 2 to be at least 3.5 and above.
I want to know at least 20 new friends in the year 2009.
I want everybody to stay healthy and wealthy.

I want to still keep in contact with Ng Li Hui, my very first god sister for 4 years.
Yeah.
Hope you can do well for your 'O' Level.

I want Xiao Qian and Ken to hit their MM.
I want Prescilla, Stephanie, Fabian and Clive to hit their ME.
I want those that put in their best to hit their desired positions.
Even if at the end of the day, I did not hit my MM.
I am still happy.
Coz, like what I have promised.
When I first asked you all to work together with me, I want you guys to succeed.
If I can't hit, at least I see my guys hit.
That's my resolution for year 2009.

But I will still try my best to hit MM by end of this month.
I don't believe within these 4 days, there won't be any miracle.
I am left with 11137LV towards my MM.
I will hit MM.
Yeah!

Time is the limiting factor...

2008-12-18T22:18:00.003+08:00

The time is really running out this time round.
Left with less than 14 days.
People starting to count down for a new year to come.
I start to get panic on how to hit my MM by end of this year.

Can I make it?
It's not that I started to feel negative.
My guys are not really active everyday.
Even if they are active.
They can't help me much.

I got to think of ways to hit it.
If only, time could pause for a month.
Whereby I got enough time to train people up.
But now time is the limiting factor.

I need to have activities packed everyday.
I also need to chiong my studies.

Still left with 11167LV towards my MM.
I MUST hit MM!
I can't be negative anymore.

Okay le.
No more blogging for the time being.
I am going to do my storyboarding first.
If not, this entire break will be a waste.
I still need to chiong my portfolio siah.
Haiz.

Can my Christmas present be a MM?
I must press on...

15th Dec (IAC)

2008-12-16T00:58:00.003+08:00

Today's event will be the second last IAC that everybody will experience.
The last IAC(Inter Associate Challenge) will be on the coming next Monday.
Hope all my guys can attend for this last and final slide show.

Today, Xiao Qian and I went up to collect our ME badge.
Really got to say that I am proud of her.
She is a 1 day ME trained by me, together with the help of Mr Keith and Mr Jason.
Now our goals are the same.
Ken, Xiao Qian and I will be fighting towards our MM by end of this month.
The project is going to end.
Let's not have any holiday mood le.
Fight now before the quota increase.
You can enjoy your fruit of labour next month during the Chinese New Year.

So basically this is me.
I was giving a thank you speech and to share my journey with the rest on how I acheived my ME.
The journey was tough.
I had a bad times during this two month in VE.
But Mr Keith and Mr Jason didn't give up on me.
I didnt let them down, of course.
I will fight hard, yeah.

So this is the newly promoted ME.
We took a photo together with our Sapphire Associate Manager, Mrs Kit Tan.

Thanks Prescilla for taking down this photo.

We forget to take down a group photos.

Sian.
haha.

But nevermind, next mon, I will need everyone to turn down for this last IAC.

Then have group photo.

Yeah.

Let's see next month, I will be going up again to receive another badge.
Haha.

Yeah.

The IAC is going to begin...

2008-12-13T21:19:00.003+08:00

The IAC (Inter Associate Challenge) is about to begin in a few days time.
Monday, We are going to make a big bang in the whole of the seminar room.

Hope to see at least 24 guys from my organisation by Mon.
They must be ready to fight de.
Yeah.

Everything is going quite smoothly.
I still left 11197LV to my MM.

I need to chiong le especially now is my holiday.
I must hit it by next week.

As for my studies, I need to chiong as much as possible during this break.
Especially for my Portfolio.
I need to do before Studio Project start.
Yeah.

Fight le.
No more slacking.
Let's fight till the end.
17 more days before the end of Year 2008.
Time flies.

I have dreams and targets and goals every year.
Last year, my goals were to get into the top few for my 'O' Level Exam.
I must get a PSP Slim(Modified) for my own.
I must buy alot of clothes.
I must enjoy especially after putting in so much hardwork for my exam.

But this year...
I must die die hit my MM by end of this year.
In fact, halfway through towards my BM.
I must get a new PSP Slim(Modified) again cse I lost it a few months ago.
I must buy executives wear.
Either G200 Blazer, shirt and pants or GoldLion shirt and pants.
If can, I want Zara Blazer.
Yeah.
Sound ambitious.

For studies, I want to achieve at least 4 distinctions for my DMD course.
And 3 As.
I must get at least 3.6 and above for my GPA this time.
I want to get into Animation specialization for year 2.

I want everybody to stay healthy.
I want the year of 2009 to be a good start!
I want everybody to stay happy.
Peace!

2008-12-06T23:29:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, 5th December 2008 was the last grouping for House Of Red this year.
I was told to go up to give a speech which was like super last min lor.
I gave my speech to share with the SAM on how I managed to hit my ME.

I was nervous at the start.
But after that, I start to calm down.
I was super daring sia.
I mean what I said was not what I planned to say during the grouping.

I told the crowd, that I believe I can do it, and I will do it.
I see my hardwork and determination and effort for these 2 months.
I suffered alot of hardship.
I really got to thank Mr Keith and Mr Jason for helping me all these while.
Without their help, I definitely wouldn't be there yesterday to give a speech.

I promised to go up again as many times as possible.
I want to tell the rest that.
No matter what happen, don't give up.
The moment you give up, you will lose everything.
You fail, but you still don't give up, at least you still stand a chance to fight back.

I won't fail this time.
This month is super crucial for me.
I must definitely hit my MM by end of this month.
If I can hit my MM before the SlideShow which falls on 15th December 2008,
I will have a higher chances of hitting my BM by end of this year.
Yeah.
I will fight for Mr Keith 1st stage of car.
I will try all my best to help.
I believe he will do it.
Mr Jason managed to cross his 2nd stage.
Now he is fighting super hard to finish his last stage together with Haryato,
together with some of his mysterious people.
haha.

I believe in my uplines as well as for my downlines.
I will increase the strength of GROUP 2 in KTA.
I will make a super great impact to the rest.
I will make Mr Keith and Mr Jason proud.
I want to be the most prominent guy in Mr Keith's organisation.
I will do it.

Shall see me wearing a blazer in few weeks time.
haha.
Today Mr Keith let me try out his blazer.
The feeling of wearing it make me feel so different.
To hit MM, you must have the MM attitude before you hit it.
Beliefs are important.
Hardwork, determination, effort, time, resilence.
Haha.

Sound like Westwood qualities.
Lols...

Speed Paint (Ep 1)

2008-12-05T01:11:00.011+08:00

This is my first painting.Very rough de. Look darm messy. Haha. I called this "The Journey".

This is my 2nd speed paint. I named it "City".

Sound abit weird. Haha. Still trying to improve. The first 2 painting was done in July if I am not wrong. Lols.

This is one of my studio project 1 de final piece. Though the color combination is nice, the adding of details still can be improvised. Lols. This is done during sem 1. I named it "Little India".

This is my 5th speed paint, which is done during my holiday.

I named it "Flare Eye Dragon".

This is my 6th speed painting with some details on it. There is something wrong with the proportion and is too stylized le. haha. Need to be improve. Lols. I named it "Buster Sword".

This is my 7th painting. Same as the 6th, got proportion problem. Still need room for improvement. The clothes she wear is too stiff le. Haha.

This is my 8th painting, called the Machine City. This concept is something similar to my Little India. Just that it is in achromatic values.

This is my 9th painting. "The Illusion". Still need to improve alot for the proportion. Haha.

Overall, please comment.

Haha.

All these took me about 1hour.
Except for the Spell Caster and the Sword Buster which took me another hour for details.

Very long sia.
Need to improve on my speed next time.

Practice makes perfect.

Yeah...

Now back to VE.
Must keep the fighting spirit!
MM is my target.
BM is my bonus!

Yeah!

Gear up to MM...

2008-12-03T18:47:00.002+08:00

Time to get ready to fight MM for this month.
If can, hit BM.
The time is running.
Holiday is starting in 1 week time.
Sian.

NYP only got 2 weeks of holiday.
Compared to other poly.
Nevermind.

Anyway, I still need to go find another 2 more people.
Hope to be potential people.
Got determination to do well in future.
Hardworking is also one of the thing that I am looking for.

Die die also must hit my MM by end of this year.
Hope to hit it within 2 weeks time.
So that the remaining 2 weeks can chiong for my BM.
Haha.

Anyway, assignments are getting more and more tough.
But that's the fun of it, don't you think so.
Haha.
Lame.

Finally ME and 3/4 left to MM. Roars...

2008-12-01T00:34:00.003+08:00

At last, I achieved my ME.
Feel that during this month, I really learn alot of things from many people.
Especially for presentation, I really learn alot.
I even been asked to attach with my downlines for appointments.
Although some got close some didn't.
At the very least, I have gained lots of experiences.

Today's the appointment with Stephanie was very interesting.
It was today's appointment that made me realised human being is weak.
No matter how smart, how hardworking and how capable you are,
the moment you fall ill.
That's the end of the game.

Though I didn't close this customer.
Because I understand how this customer feels.
I know that she can't afford to make any mistakes again.
Both her and her husband have been worrying for their daughter more than themselves.
I understand their situations and obstacles that they have to face.
I couldn't bear to close it.
Sorry Stephanie(If you got read this blog).

But I can assure you that your next appointment if you can fix properly.
I will close something for you.
If not, I can treat you eat lunch.

Meanwhile, Xiao Qian still owe me a meal for closing a single for her.
And also don't forget about the transport fees.
Being attached to her appointment over the past few days.
Thanks to her, I gained my presentation experiences.
Thanks to her, I achieved my ME position.
Thanks to her, I managed to stay strong even though there have been alot of obstacles.
Thanks to her, I have been spending lots of my transport fees travelling around Jurong area.

Congrats on hitting your ME too.
I am glad to have Xiao Qian, Prescilla, Stephanie, Ken, Mazuz, Leo, Jing Ru and Lionel in my team.
Let's fight together for our last month.
My target for our last month is...

I want Kenny to hit MM.
I want Xiao Qian to hit MM.
I want Lionel to hit MM too.
I want Prescilla to hit ME and left 1/4 to MM.
I want Stephanie to hit ME and left 1/2 to MM.
I want Mazuz to hit ME and left 1/2 to MM.
I want Jing Ru to hit ME and left 1/2 to MM.
I want Leo to hit ME and left 1/2 to MM.

Last but not least, I want myself to hit MM and left 1/8 to BM.
All these MUST be and CAN be done by end of this year.
Let's fight together.
Roars!!!
Yeah!!!

Back to studies.
These few days I won't be going back to VE.
Due to workload I have in Poly.
I need to settle alot of my assignments.
Hope I can clear off everything.
Then relax and start preparing for my Studio Project 2.

Everything has its UPs and DOWNs.
It just determine whether you want to accept it or not.
It's your choice afterall.
There is no right or wrong.
Just hold on to your belief.
And take action on it.
And you will succeed one day.

2 more days to MM!!! Fight!!!

2008-11-28T23:06:00.003+08:00

Yeah!
Managed to help Xiao Qian close 1 Single.
Ken's downline also close 1 Fresh Air.
Mr Keith also close 1 package for Fresh Air.
Seem to me that everything is goin prefectly fine today!
Hope the remaining days can be as smooth as today.

So that I still can hit MM by end of this month.
My desire to hit MM is 100%.
No matter what, I will hit MM.
Die die also must hit.

I believe I will do it.
I will help Xiao Qian and Lionel hit ME by end of this month.
I will help Prescilla to hit at least halfway to ME.
And also not forget Stephanie whose Calstar is pending.
Haha.
If everything is successful.
Fernanders will become MM.
Yeah!
Let's fight all the way!

Now back to study mode.
Must do well for my modules.
Yeah!

Below is one of my assignment for Digital Imaging.

For those who view le, please give comment.

Thanks.

3 more days to MM!!! Fight!!!

2008-11-27T22:53:00.002+08:00

Time is running out.
I must chiong as fast as I can.
Roars!!!

I also need to chiong my projects.
By hook or by crook, I will do all my best to settle EVERTHING by end of this month.

Freakly tired.
I don't want my effort to be wasted.
Die die must achieve what I want!
If not, it will be my turn to be negative.
Haha.
Joking.

No matter what happen.
Even though I only left 3 days to clear my MM and I still haven't hit my ME,
I willl still make it.
I believe I can make it.

I will prove everyone wrong.
As long as my last breathe is still there.
I will fight till the very end.
It's time to end the game.
Good Bye...

Fight till the end...

2008-11-25T22:16:00.002+08:00

The feeling is good.
Although we didnt manage to close big product.
We still tried our best to close one carton of Cal Ions Water.
That's the first stepping stone for me.
I can say being the first time for presenter for my guys.
I am indeed proud.

Don't worry.
Next time I will close a big product for you.
Let's fight for the position together.
Yeah.
Same goes for the rest.
Anyway, time flies.
Now is going to end of November le.
I am going to achieve something at least by end of this year.
One year is going to end soon.
Everything changed and happened in 2009.
But due to changes, people start to get more mature.

I got friends graduating from their secondary school.
Going to Poly and JCs.
I got friends achieving good results for their exam.
Friends are important.
But true friends is the best after all.
Sound contradicting.

But do hope.
I can manage both my studies and work well.
Time management is still important.

Still got a few more days before the end of Mr Jason's 2nd stage of car incentive.
I hope he can clear this stage.
I will try my very best to help him hit his car.

As for studies,
I need to chiong this time round.
Coz I think I am lagging behind the rest.
I need to score straight As for Sem 2.
So I can't waste any more time le.

That's about it for today.
I hope can close the Calstar for Ms Ang that side.
Haha!!!

The battle is still on.

2008-11-25T01:33:00.004+08:00

I am tired.
My guys are tired too.
But we must never give up.
We believe our seniors.
We must give ourself a chance to believe.
There is nothing to lose.
I will still press on.
Appointment fail again.
This is my 6th appointments.
But nevermind.
At least I know, I am getting more and more experienced in terms of such appointment.
I am getting more and more confidence for my next appointment.
Since I have went so far.
I am ready to go all the way.
I use to believe I can do well in secondary school.
I believe I can promote from NA to Exp.
I believe I can get top 3 in Exp.
I believe I can do well in my Poly sem 1.
Yes, indeed I have achieved that.
Through pure hardwork and belief.
I may not be smart.
I may not be knowledgeable.
But at least I know one thing.
If I am hardworking enough, I can become smart and knowledgeable.
I can surpass the rest one day.
I believe I can hit MM by end of this month.
Although I am now a SE,
I still hold on to my belief.

Today's the follow up at one of my prospect house was not successful.
I tried to make up for Mr Jason.
But I did not.
However, I know there is still chance for me to close it.
I will follow up again next time.
At least now I don't put so much hope onto this prospect.
I can focus on other thing.
And that is to continue to fight till the very end.

7 more days left
I must at least hit ME by end of this month.
If can, MM.

By end of this month,
I will gain more experienced compared to anyone else.
I will be even more confident for next month.
I will be even ready for next month's battle.
I will achieve what I believe in.
I can achieve all these.
Because of one thing...

I have never fail myself once ever since I turned 13.

Fucking angry with myself today. What a letdown!!!

2008-11-21T23:03:00.003+08:00

WHY AM I SO FUCKING SUPER FORGETFUL!
WHY AM I SO FUCKING CARELESS!

I am really sorry, Mr Jason.
Today's the appointments were supposed to be successful.
And of all appointment, I actually forget to bring the file to present.
Then Mr Jason was like very shag when he realised I forget to bring.
Really sorry.

No matter what, I will try all my best to help him clear his 2nd stage.
If not, I will feel very guilty.
I learnt a very big mistake.
I promise I won't make such a stupid mistake ever again.
Sorry,

Argh.
I am so angry with myself now.
Mr Jason drove me all the way from the company to Boon Lay just to settle this appointment.
Then I forget to bring.

I swear I will help Mr Jason hit his second stage of car.

2008-11-21T00:32:00.002+08:00

20th November 2008
Although I didnt manage to hit MM by today.
Nevermind, I will still continue to fight by end of this month.

Today's appointment with Xiao Qian's auntie was really wasted.
If we were to come early, most probably we are able to close it.
But nevermind, a lesson to be learnt.
Yeah.
This is my first time being a presenter.
And somemore is present in chinese.
Very difficult for people like me who have been speaking English since start of this year.
Haiz.

But let's not give up.
Press on.
I believe everyone will hit their desired position by end of this month.
We will hit the positions together.
I must die die hit MM by end of this month.
By hook or by crook, is a must.
Yeah!

Ok, I shall go chiong my other stuff le.
Updates next time.

4 more days! The fighting spirit is still there!

2008-11-16T22:22:00.002+08:00

16th November 2008
Still got 4 more days before the 1month MM expired.
I AM GOING TO FIGHT TILL THE VERY END.
YEAH!
DIE DIE ALSO MUST HIT.
HAHA.

The tide has changed.
The darkness is going to fall.
The light shall rise this time.
KTA shall win again.
Yeah!

Viper all the way!!!
Yeah!

The battle shall begin again but in different scales.

2008-11-12T01:27:00.002+08:00

I am ready to fight now!
Super ready!

Just left some parts which should be done by end of this week.
After this, everything shall rise in power.
I will confirm hit MM by 20th November.
I will have my force ready by end of this week before I strike.

This time round will be different.
Got Kenny, Lionel and Leo who are already ready to fight!
Now pending are Xiao Qian, Priscilla, Crystal, Zahid, Hock San, Boon Nik, Jacklyn, Wei Yang and Michael.
If all are ready, the battle shall begin!

All of them are STRONG!
Let's fight for what we want before the IAC ends.

Meanwhile, for my studies.
Tuesday de Digi Test was purely lucky.
Why do I said so.
Despite making some mistakes, i still managed to get full marks.
Impressive man!
But I won't make the same mistakes again next time.

As for my Maya test on Wednesday.
I hope I can do well.

The Typo test was quite disappointing for me.
I got 12/20.
And somemore is MCQ.
What a letdown to myself.
Haiz.
But nvm.
I won't give up.

Although I hate some modules, I still have to bear with it for the entire sem.
I set myself a target for this Sem 2.
I will confirm, plus guarantee chop, I will get all straight As for all my 6 modules.
If can, i will get 3 distinctions for some modules.

As for my VE.
By end of Sem 2.
I will hit at least a BM.
I will have at least 30 over people working with me together.
Yeah!
High expectation!
It can be done.
And it will be done!

Shall see the result by end of Sem 2.

One month MM! Here I comes!

2008-11-09T23:08:00.002+08:00

Just fully recovered from my illness.
Been sick for the past few days.
Didn't turn for lessons for thursday and friday.
Now then I realised how terrible it is when you are sick.

Keep vomiting.
No appetite to eat.
No mood to do anything or even think.
Really very shag then.
It was then I realised how importance health is.

So now fully recovered from it.
I need to rush alot of stuffs.

Let's touch on my company side first.
I still got 11 more days before 1 month ends for my MM position.
I need to chiong le.
Built my force up le.
Everything must be fully prepared.
Tomorrow I will be seeing my downline, Ken going up to stage to collect his ME badge.
Impressive man!
Good luck to Ken!
And also to Lionel!
Fight for your goals man!

Everyone full force.
Enjoy the success by end of this year.
Yeah!
18000LV to MM!
Fight for it for sure!

Desmond will also be going up to stage tomorrow to collect his ME badge.
All the best to him.
Mr Willie will also be going up to collect his BM badge.
Even his girlfriend also hit her MM position le.
Solid siah.
All are now fighting like crazy le.
Cant stay stagnant le.

Back to my studies.
Got to chiong my homeworks now.
Tomorrow I will be going to school pretty early to touch up my stuff.
Hope can clear my homework asap.
I need to chiong my animation fund and drawing asap because I miss the lectures and tutorials on Thur and Fri last week.
Sibei shag siah.
Haiz.
But nvm.
I will catch up de.
Haha.

The fighting spirit rise!

2008-11-05T23:24:00.002+08:00

MM!
I will hit MM by end of this month.
In fact, before 20th November I must hit MM.
So that I can fulfil my target of hitting one month MM.
I will press on!

Full force towards MM.
Lionel and Ken are also doing pretty fast.
Especially for Ken who is now a ME.
Everybody have changed alot.
Especially for Lionel.

Really got to admit.
He now have become more mature.
I mean his presentation skills, the way he present himself and the way he dress up have changed.

And he soon will be earning like crazy.
Haha.
Anyway, Lionel, Ken and I have decided.
We must hit at least to MM.
We are so called challenging with each other, also got include Henry and Haryato.
All the best to Mr Jason.
We will help you to clear your 2nd stage of car incentive!
As well as for Mr Keith.
We will help you fight to help you hit BM by end of this month!
Yeah!

2 more months before the quotas end.
2 more months before you see the differences among us.
Haha.

In the meantime.
I also need to balance my studies.
So far so good for Storyboard and Digi Imaging.
Need to touch up for my Drawing 2, Maya, Typography and Animation Fundamental.
Other than that, everything is moving smoothly.
Except that I need to rest more.

Super tired man!
Haiz.
But no choice.
Now everyone is fighting like nobody business like that.
I must fight to catch up or if can, on par with them.
Yeah!

Sound too weird to be true

2008-11-02T22:04:00.002+08:00

Something strange keep happening.
Actually not strange.
Just that it doesn't sound right.
Few weeks ago, I found a parrot which flew towards me when I was about to leave the house.
So I brought that parrot home as pet.
That parrot has been with us like almost 2 months.
Very cute and annoying sometime whenever it screech.
Can even play with the parrot.
We named it 'Michael'.
We bought this parrot on 3rd of July 2008.

So not long ago.
Which is today, 2nd of November 2008.
My brother just bought home another pet, baby cat.
It look very cute too.
Very fluffy too.
But my mum don't like the idea of having a cat in our house.
Same for my dad.
So I guess tomorrow they will release the cat away.

Anyway, sound weird, coz all these animals come to us by their own will.
Sound too weird to be true.
Nevermind.

Back to topic.
Nothing unique to talk about other than the one I had just mentioned above.
Back to studying mode le.
Haha.

2008-11-01T22:20:00.002+08:00

Anyone interested to work part time job?
$8 per hour basis.
Interested please reply me.

Anyway, no updates for today.
Next month confirm hit ME for sure.
Back to studies le.

2008-10-30T20:58:00.002+08:00

Week 3 will end tomorrow.
Time pass really fast.
Now is like going to be the end of October.
The 'O' Level is going to end soon.
I still got 17 more weeks before the end of Sem 2 which means the end of my year 1 in NYP.
Wow.
Everything was like moving so darm fast.
Hope everything can turn smoothly for Sem 2.
This time round, my GPA must be hit at least 3.4 and above.
I must aim for all straight 'A's.
Although got some modules I don't really like,
still must bear with it for the remaining 17 weeks.
Haha.

Anyway, 4 more days before the sales submission for VE.
So far, everything was doing pretty good in VE.
Hope that this will continue on.

Ok, so far, got nothing much to say.

Light is the hope to everything

2008-10-25T22:57:00.003+08:00

I see the light in my route now.
The instruction is simple.
All I need is to follow.
Then everything will be in order.
I need to press on.

Everything is packed now.
I need to manage my time well.
Haha.

Today, Lionel and I brought Boon Nik and Jacklyn to come down to our company(VE).
Well, the whole session was successful.
I expect the worst scenario.
But it did not happen.
I can't confirm the result yet.
Let's hope everything caan be successful.

Now I got to chiong my homework before it's too late to regret.
Haha.

Nothing special about today. Just post for the sake of posting. Haha..

2008-10-23T22:23:00.002+08:00

I need to catch up with everything.
Although now is still consider quite early,
it's better to prepare now than to suffer later.

This sememster is totally different and harder to cope with compared to last time.
Now I am also working.
I am tutoring a primary school boy and also running a small business.
Though the business is not very big,
it's still need time to manage and to catch up with my other collegues.

So now I must seize this opportunities, to clear as many school stuffs as possible.
Learn as many things as possible before I got no time.

Haiz.
This road will be difficult to go through.
But no choice.
I made the decision.
I need to balance it.
I try not to neglect other stuffs.

Ok.
End of reflection.

The battle just begin...

2008-10-19T21:42:00.004+08:00

I took a gamble.
A gamble that cost me alot of stress.
Stress over financial.
The crisis have not subsize yet.
I am hoping that everything will pass on smoothly.
Promoting to SE wasn't easy for me.
The next position is ME.
By end of 20th Nov, I hope to be MM.
Provided everything goes according to plan.
Of course, there will be some back up.
But then, the energy left to continue fighting is minimal.
Studies are coming in too.

Can cope or not will be different story.
But since I take this challenge, I will finish it.
Anyway, this might be a good start for me.
Especially when I am going for the incentives at the later stage.
By then, everything will change.

The winds are strong.
The walls are hard.
The tough gets going, the going gets tough.
But I believed, after the storms diminished, the light will rise.
The darkness will fall.
The light will rise.
And everything will be back to normal.
In fact, better than normal.

But there is one criteria.
That is provided everything goes according to plan.
This is hard.
But if this can be overcome.
Everything will be a piece of cake.

I want to turn the table around as soon as possible.
I want to change everything.
This is harder than 'O' Level.
This is harder than exam.

Hope one month later.
Everything will change.
The status will change.

As for my studies, do not need to worry.
I will still balance my studies.
I will do well for both.

Never give up till the last breath...

2008-10-15T22:25:00.004+08:00

I am lost.
Losing everything seemed very shag for me.
I feel I gain nothing out of it.
But after somehow or what.
I see the light.
And I know actually the answer is simple.
Why do I think so much.
Although is good,
there is limitation to it.
I now aim.
Just like what I did for the past few years.

Though most I did not achieve it.
But there was a sense of satisfaction in it.
This time round will be in different scales.

I need to believe in myself.
And I believe I can do it.
I will do it.
To do something that people seemed impossible.
To do something to make my parent proud.
Though they also said is impossible.
Sound too good to be true.
But that is the motivation for me.

I lost my PSP.
I lost my thumbdrive.
I spoiled my HP earpiece.
I earn nothing much during the holiday.
Due to the lost of my thumbdrive,
I lost all my portfolio works.
In fact, I almost lost everything.
So now, I must gain it all back.
I will turn the table around.
I will prove them wrong.
I will tell everyone, that FERNANDERS KOAK CHAN SAM will definitely make it!
I will hit MARKETING EXECUTIVE within 3 days.
And hit MARKETING MANAGER withing 30 days.

Sound too good to be true.
But when the truth is out.
It will be fantastic.
I will build up my forces.
I will build up everything I have lost.
I will use what I have learnt,
to achieve what I want.

But for one thing in order for me to succeed.
I need the support from my parents, most importantly.
Once I achieved that.
Nothing will be impossible le.

Trust me.
Fernanders Koak Chan Sam will make it.
No matter what happen.
I will not give up until my last breath is gone.
The battle has just began...

Sem 2 start with remorse and the feeling of being shag...

2008-10-14T20:54:00.003+08:00

Sian.
Why am I so unlucky?
How did I lost my PSP?
I haave already lost my 8GB thumbdrive.
And now, I just lost my PSP yesterday.
What happen?
Who is the bloody hell that stole my PSP?
You know how hard it was for me to work in order to get this PSP.
You may sound is easy.
But is definitely hard for me.

I was totally lost yesterday when I checked my bag.
I saw my PSP was gone!
For the first time I was so sad over such thing.
Because this is my first game device I brought in my whole life.
I brought it last year almost going to the end of the year.
Haiz.

School commenced today.
It was quite relax.
The Typography, Digi-Imaging seemed ok to me.
I mean there will be lesser assignments and exercises for these two modules.
Most will be done in class.
As for Storyboarding, it will be tedious but I will bear with it.
Haiz.

Lost my PSP.
Lost my 8GB thumbdrive.
Haven't get my pay yet.
No money.
Tired.
No sales.
Nothing...
It was really very shag.
Haiz.
But I won't give up no matter what...

Holiday Reflection (Part 14)

2008-10-11T22:09:00.002+08:00

Time pass really fast.
Haiz.
This is not the first time I said this sentence.
Haha.
Sure, it's true that holiday is ending soon.
Monday will be the first week of Sem 2 for my Year 1.
Hope I can do well for both my studies and my business, Venture Era.
I think I am not intending to join any CCA yet.
Unless I can maintain both of this.

Right now, I am doing my recruitment for my VE.
Haiz.
As for my sales appointment.
It is not going as smoothly as I have thought.
Does God really hate me?
Haiz.
But nvm, I will still press on.

Monday we will be having another seminar which took place once every three months.
I am looking forward to the event.
It would be interesting, yeah.
Fortunately my first week, I do not have any classes except for my Intro to 3D.
Other than that, I am quite free on week 1.
Let's hope the remaining weeks won't be so hiong.
Haha.

Ok lah, I need to go do my portfolio le.
I haven't really touch much on it.
Haiz.
Don't know what the hell am I doing for these past few weeks.
Sian.a

Holiday Reflection (Part 13)

2008-10-07T22:35:00.003+08:00

Today's appointment with Mdm Rozi was pretty unbelievable.
Not only that she was able to give me time to listen to my presentation.
She was also considering to have some of the products such as Fresh Air, Calstar Premiere and Magnetic Sleeping System.
Well, I am not expecting high.
I thought that she was not interested in it.

But overall, I think I have done my best for the presentation.
It was pretty fast, less than an hour.
Now, I only hope she would take up at least one of the product.
So that I can be promoted.

Well, the recruitment for me today seemed fine.
Lionel bought along his 2 other friends to listen.
After that, they were considering whether to come for the trainning.
Yes, I know that they have booked this saturday to come back for trainning.
But I cannot guarantee that they will be so steady.
Looks can be deceiving.
But well, if in the end, they don't want to do, it's alright.
They will be losing such an opportunity.
Haha.

Anyway, I tried to persuade my bros to come down on Friday to listen.
But the answer is still the same.
Well, I guess I just leave the question hanging around there for some time first.
After I have do well, I will try to ask them to join.
Don't worry, I won't blame them for joining me le.
There's nothing to blame on.

As for the tshirt design and namecard design.
I was actually quite piss off with it.
What is the meaning of fun.
Can you tell me what type of colors do you like?
What do mean as simple?
I already put it very simple.
Yet, you still say very complicated.
Haiz.
Other than saying the design not fun and very complicated.
Do you have any suggestions to improve it.

Haiz.
Nvm.

School starting soon.
Next week onwards, I will be super busy le.
Sian.
But nvm.
Time management again.
Stress again.
Haha.

Holiday Reflection (Part 12)

2008-10-07T00:04:00.002+08:00

Today I attended the Venture Era Seminar and the IAC(Inner Associates Challenge).
The whole event last about 2 hours plus from 7pm to almost 9plus.
I really enjoyed this whole event.
Besides, this is my first time attending such an event.
It was fabulous.
Everybody was so hyper and enthu about it.
I see new faces, experienced people.
I see alot of managers from Marketing Manager to Business Manager to Business Group Manager.
Then lastly, we got our special guests, Mr Kit Tan, Mr Steven Ho and Mr Dewey Ho, our Associates Team leader.
I admired the way they present themselves.
Especially during the ICA.
These three prominant people debate among themselves, regarding the sales, the promotions, and etc.
Although it was a friendly debate, the way they shoot each associates was impressive.
They didn't use any difficult words or vulgarity.
They only make use of certain words that have meaning behind it to shoot.
It was fun.
They were super alert as in how to counterback immediately after another party have commented.
The winner for last month sales was DHA(Dewey Ho Associates).
Followed by SHA(Steven Ho Associates).
I am in KTA(Kit Tan Associates).
Although we didn't clinch the top, it was a good efforts that everyone have put in.
I admired these people.

I have also viewed the presentation for the slide show.
It was fantastic.
Seriously, I wasn't exaggerating.
I see people collecting their badges.
From Sales Agent to Marketing executive.
Then from Marketing Executive to Marketing Manager.
I see these people work extremely hard to get it.
Some were very lucky.
They can close many deals in less than a week.
Some took months to make it to Marketing Manager.
How long will I take to become that.
I saw Willie(my ex schoolmate in secondary school).
He is going to be promoted next month to Business Manager.
Then I saw Desmond, he is also going to be promoted to Marketing Executive.
Haiz, if I have joined him earlier, I will be somewhere around there.
I see everyone grows and improved.
After attending this seminar, I am super motivated to do well in this business.
For your info, this is not a job.
It's a business.
Some people don't believe.
I don't blame them.
I blame myself for not able to convince them.

Tomorrow I got an appointment with Mdm Rozi in school early in the morning.
I know the possibility of closing a deal is hard.
But I am going to try my very best to close it.
In this business, I realised one important thing.
When you are doing business, you are not doing it because you want to kill time.
You are not doing it because you want to earn more money.
This "Wellness" business is being set up in Singapore is to help people,
realise how health is important to us.
Yes, I agree some may say why should we trust you.
The thing is do you give us a chance to explain, to present, to do a demo for you?
Do you give yourself a chance to even try the product.
You never try, you never listen, you never see.
How can you judge by saying is not good, is fake one.
How can you think this way.
Haiz.

I believe I can do well in this business.
And I am going to somehow or what do well.
I heard one of a female who is now 17 years old.
She's been doing this business for 9 months.
And now she achieved her Marketing Manager badge.
She shared with us that she is going to hit Business Manager by end of this year.
She is going to earn 1 million before she turns 19.
I was totally impressed by her.
She have such an impossible dreams.
But she believed in it.
The result may not show in short terms.
But in long terms, after working hard for 9 months, she finally become a manager, at the age of 17.
She is thinking really far and planning for it.
I believed she can do it.
She have 17 appointment in her first month, and out of this, none were closed.
She didn't stop.
She press on.
I believe I can do it too.

I want to ask my brothers to join me.
But they don't want.
Sometime I was thinking.
They don't have to join me.
But can they give me a chance to meet them at eunos to tell them about the business plan.
No.
They didn't.
I will still try again to ask them to come down.
Even if they don't want to join at the end of the day, I am still satisfied because I have done my best to ask them come down and talk to them.
But the thing is that they don't even give me this chance.
I have apologized to Desmond.
I now understand his feeling.
He want us to do well, yet we think negatively.
I want my brothers to do well.
They said is impossible.
How do you know this is impossible?
Have you listened to my plan?
I know Eunos may be far.
But imagine one day, there is a Gold Mine in Pasir Ris.
Do you mind traveling all the way down to take as much as you can.
Distance is not the problem.
Is the mindset.
I just need you guys to give me a chance.
We always like to say, we are brothers.
But sometime when I think of it.
Even asking you guys to come down to Eunos to listen to the plan.
You guys don't even bother to come.
Some said if nobody comes, then I also don't want to come.
Can I ask, am I invisible?
Even if nobody comes, I will still be there to guide you.
What are your afraid of.
Yes, I will try to ask your guys to join me.
But if you guys really don't want, at least come down to Eunos and listen to my plan.
What are brothers for?
Is it just a name by itself?
Do we shared thick and thins?
Yes, we shared our thick together.
But when either one of us have problem, everyone move aside.
What is this?
I am just asking you people to come down and listen.
Don't have to buy anything or do anything.
Just listen.
This kind of simple task, you guys can't even help me.

My manager told me one thing in which is true.
If I can't even convince my brothers that this business can do well.
How am I going to convince others?
How am I going to convince others to buy my products?

Some even said after I hit a certain sales, then he might consider.
The thing I want to ask, why must you wait until I hit.
Does this mean that if one day I got a job that can earn 1 million dollars.
Are you going to wait for me to earn that, before you consider.
By then, isn't it too late.
Why do you guys always have to wait.
I am not forcing you all to join.
Just like for instance, if I have a story I want to write and then publicise.
I need someone to read for me and give me feedback.

How would you feel if people pour you cold water.
Say your story cannot make it.
Say don't waste your time.
They don't even bother to give you a chance to explain.
How would you feel.

How would you feel if one day, you need help, and nobody even cares about you?
How will you think of brothers?

How would you feel if one day, you want us to invest on your business or something.
Then we reject without even giving you a chance to explain.
Instead we pour cold water, say cannot make it lah.
How will you feel.

So that's what I am feeling now.
I feel we are no longer brothers.
If this business cannot make it.
Why nobody trust me?
Have I dissapoint anyone before?
Can I be so stupid to even join in and ask you guys to listen.
If I treat you all as my brothers, will I want to telll you guys about this business.
If I want to earn more for myself, I wouldn't bother to tell you guys.
I want to be rich in future.
I also want you guys to be rich.
Unless you tell me you have a back up in future to support you.
Other than that, are you able to be successful in future.
Some will say I confirm can.
If so, can you tell me how you going to achieve it.
Words with no actions are just bullshit.
Don't be too naive.
Don't be too childish.
Some are turning 18 soon.
Some are going to be 17.
We are going to be adult one day.
You people don't have childhood isit?
I want you guys to be successful, that's why I am telling you guys.
I need you guys to wake up!
For godness sake, think of your future.
Are you going to be successful.
This business is an opportunity.
People who are lazy, please wake up.
Seriously, I am not going to help anyone who don't even help himself.
People who are lazy now, next time they ask me for help.
I will say one thing.
"Who are you? Do I know you? Why should I help you?"
People who still have the 'kid' mindset, please wake up.
When you shoot people, think about yourself.
Do you have the rights to shoot.
Do you know people are shooting behind you.
Just that you don't know only.
Wake up MAN!

To those brothers who have see this blog.
I just ask you guys one last question.
Do you want to come down and give me a chance to explain my plan?
If you don't want, is ok.
I can understand.
You don't have to come down as a whole group.
Can come down alone also can.
I have try my best to ask you guys come down.
Thank you.

Holiday Relfection (Part 11)

2008-10-04T21:55:00.004+08:00

I reflect on what I have did over the past few years.
I have experienced being a
Telemarketer,
Sales Promoter for StarHub,
Sales Agent for Venture Era,
Tution teacher for Primary school kid,
Free-lance designer for small projects,
English Department staff for Popular Bookstore,
Waiter in various hotels,
Part-time assistant for health checks
and lastly, Street-surveyors.

Sound alot right.
Now come to think of it.
I really did all kind of job.
But of all, I think I hate doing sales.

In fact, I hate to work.
Coz, the feeling is different when u work.
I used to ignore sales promoter especially those door to door.
I used to hate people promoting products infront of me, trying their best to convince me.
I hate people asking me to do a survey both in phone and outside.
I hate people who serve me wrongly, then is slow in their services.
I hate to do service work especially when you have to listen to other people.
I hate to teach English because I am weak at it.

But come to think it another way.
In the end, I am doing things that I don't like.
Somehow or what it contradict.

But is good that I do all these silly jobs.
Coz, I realised one thing.
I am now experiencing what other people experienced before.
The way I treat these people is now the way people treat me.
I used to pour cold water on products that I don't trust.
In fact, almost all products whether is good or not.
I used to hang off people's phone call when they call me to do some surveys.
I used to shut my door tight whenever I hear got salesman outside, trying to sell something.
Haiz.
And now I am like that.
Strange.

But after this event.
I finally understand how they feel.
And from now onwards.
I will listen patiently to them.
Even if I won't buy the products.
I will still give them the time to listen if I am not in the hurry.
If they want to do some survey.
I will help them to do.
Anyway just a few minutes of my time.
I just do.
If I see people trying to distrubute flyers.
Even if I won't look at it.
I will just take it.
Then I just glance through before throwing it.
I understand their feelings.
They also don't want to do these kind of job.
But for the sake of earning, they need to bear with it.
So the best I can do is to help them.

After I reached my '18' years old.
Means I can do donations without parents consent.
I will definitely donate provided I do not have financial problems.
Helping others now is important.
Coz, you never know when you need helps.
I am not exaggerating or talking big.
For god sake, please use your common sense ok!

Holiday Reflection (Part 10)

2008-10-02T22:18:00.002+08:00

Seriously, no money very shag.
Haiz.
Time pass pretty fast.
So fast that I didn't earn much.
That bastard F1.
Cause me to cut my hair.
Then in the end, they cut down on number of people.

Haiz.
Nvm.
I learnt alot from this holiday.
Next holiday I will fully make use of it.
Gzz...

Quite hard to recruit people.
But also quite hard to fix sales appointment.
Haiz.
Nvm.
My luck is not in favour with me this holiday.
Hope it can change.
Sian sia.

Holiday Reflection (Part 9)

2008-10-01T23:06:00.003+08:00

Today's another appointment.
I didn't expect much from now on.
Coz, I just want to try my best to present.

Today we went to Ms Serene Auntie's house to visit her.
Mr Elvin and I were chatting with her and her husband at first.
Then after that, I told Mr Elvin before that, that I wanted to present the first part.
So I started to talk about the 3 important things for health.
Then I move on the research, before starting the importance of blood circulation.
I was quite nervous even though I know the auntie.
I keep stampering with my words.
Actually if you ask me to present using English.
Perhaps I could.
But in Chinese.
I don't think so.
I don't even know the chinese terms of Platelets.
Haha.
But Mr Elvin had helped me alot.
I need to thank him alot.
Coz for the past two presentation, he had helped me alot.
Yet the result is a 'No'.
Haiz.
Although I didn't close the deal.
I had learnt alot of things from it.
Experience is priceless.
Even got close the deal or didn't close.
I am already satisfied with myself.
At least I know today I had tried my best.
I had learnt how to present myself.

Yes, I agreed I had presented before to people.
But seriously, when it comes to presenting to people you know.
Its quite hard.
You need the courage.
And you need to be humor.
If not, they confirm will feel bored during the presentation.
I agreed on it.
Coz I am also like that.

Anyway, now whether I got hit Sale Executive or not is important le.
I have thought through le.
Even if I didn't earn alot.
At least I have gained alot experience.
Now I earned very little.
I faced alot of rejections.
But I am confidence that as time pass.
I will be earning alot.
I will still face rejections.
But I will never give up.
Since I joined Venture Era.
I am going to grab this opportunity.
Although I am more towards the Design Industry instead of Business.
After today, I think I build up my network, my presentation, my savings through this company.
Then I will go and focus on my Design.
Which is my own Animation Studio.
Create my own movies.
Be a director.
Be a producer.

I will try to ask as many people as possible to join this company.
If they don't want, then nvm.
If they want, then good.
Coz, next time I will be the one helping people build their own company.
Haha.
Fat dreams can never be achieved if you only sit down there and think about it.
Action is the key.

Holiday Reflection (Part 8)

2008-09-30T23:02:00.004+08:00

After today's appointment.
I had learnt alot of things.
Learnt some of the problems faced by the clients.
The reason why they are unable to buy.
The reason why they want to consider first.
And many many more.

Actually today I didn't expect much from the client.
He bought one Calcium Whitening Toothpaste and one Pearl Ions Lotion.
We tried to persuade him to buy the magnetic therapy bed.
But after several solutions, he will consider about it.
Anyway, I am happy that he can at least sit down and listen to our presentation patiently.
Even if he don't buy, I thanked his effort to listen.

I also have to thank Vanessa.
She helped me alot during this period of time.
I won't forget her help.
Haha.
I don't know how to thank you, so at least let me say 'THANK YOU'
Even got close deal or didn't close.
At least we have do our best to tell the client.

I will continue to work this company.
I will not stop because people pour me cold water.
I will not stop because people reject me.
I will not stop because people don't want to join me.
All these reasons will only made me stronger.
I won't quit because of these silly mindset.
I will fight till I see the result.
If I can do extremely well during my secondary school days.
I don't see why I can't do a business like that.
If I can even manage my CCA, SC and studies in secondary school,
I don't see why I can't manage my work and studies in Poly.

Yes, I agree life is harsh.
But it depends on how you look at it.
I must stay calm no matter what.
When I see the result, people will then understand me.
Now they only see it as skeleton to them.
I understand because I used to think like them.
But now I have changed.
In fact I need to change.
If I want to be more successful than anyone else.
I need to change.

If no one support me.
If no one understand me.
If no one love me.
If no one care for me.
Then I will go and find these myself.
And I believe I will do it.

I see no point in people understanding what I have said.
Like I said, the beauty of being fake is pretendance.
Life changed, so do I.

Holiday Reflection (Part 7)

2008-09-29T23:35:00.002+08:00

Stuck in the middle.
Don't know whether to go up or remain still.
If I go up, I scared I might suffer.
If I remain still, I might affect the turnover.

But after some final decision.
I made up my mind.
I remain still first.
I will still do this biz.
I won't give up no matter wat
I will prove to others I can do it.

And once I achieved what I want.
I will only treat those that have helped me during this difficult time.
This obstacles enabled me to see through alot of things.
The realistic of the society.
The solutions are never ending as long as you continue to think.
There will be angels who will be assisting you.
There will be evils who will talk back, pour cold water, and don't support you.
But in the end, is our mindset.
There is no right or wrong answer.

Do the right thing at the right time.
Do nothing at the wrong time.
Stay calm and cool.

Just don't hate or feel angry about it.
Maybe they haven't experienced it before.
Understand them.
Treat people like as if you are treating yourself.

No matter what people do.
I know one thing.
The true self of some people.
Maybe what I think is true.
Maybe I am wrong.

Holiday Reflection (Part 6)

2008-09-28T13:58:00.002+08:00

Run as much as I could.
Think as many solutions as I could.
But the end result is still the same.
Nothing comes out.
In fact, it became worst.
But its ok.
It is only then I see the real fact.
I see the importance of certain things.
And the unimportance of some things.

I see it.
I feel it.
Now I won't fight back.
Just hope when your turns come.
Don't expect me to help.
I won't even waste a single bit of my energy to help.
Coz I won't bother about it.
I only help those that deserved it.
The rest is either they sink or swim.
None of my business anymore.

Coz now I see the reality of the society.
Don't do things that you will be regreted for.
Coz I don't care anymore.

School term starting soon.
It seems that when you become neutral.
Things seem to be better for you.
Rather than you go around asking people to help.
Help yourself rather than to beg for help.
Only people beg for help from me.
And if they were to do that.
I will consider those that deserved it.
Other than that.
The answer is NO.

Pretty straightforward.
The feelings is complicated.
The road is getting tougher and tougher.
So I guess I should be neutral.
Instead of care no one but himself.
I care those that is important to me.

One day you will realise what it means.
One day you will understand the feeling of it.
One day you will regret about it.
But isn't it too late.
Well, that's your choice.

Holiday Reflection (Part 5)

2008-09-27T22:29:00.004+08:00

The world is realistic.
Yes, I definitely agree on it.
Even I myself sometime finds it too true to be realistic.
Words can be deceiving.
So does looks.
Actions can be perfect.
But quality is different.

Why do you want to listen to what other people said?
What are you afraid of?
Why don't you try?
Some people ask you to try something that is bad for you.
But you still try.
Because you want to dare them.
But how come when people ask you to try something that is good for you.
You shun them away.
You talk negative about it.
You said is impossible.

And if things really sound that impossible.
Then there won't be today.
The technology today will not be so effective.
The mother nature will be destroyed long ago.
Why don't you try something that people thinks is impossible?
Why don't you have your own stand?
Why do you always believe in having standard stuff?
Why aren't you creative enough to think out of the box?

Do we always have to follow something that is safer?
It's not as if it is going to kill you.
If you don't want.
At least help out.
Give suggestions.
Don't demoralize that person.
Don't say is impossible.
Think as if you are thinking for yourself.

If everything is fake.
If everything won't last for long.
If everything you do will fail.
Then what is the main purpose of living in this world.
Now I can clearly understand the real meaning of
"The beauty of being fake is pretendance'

Everyone is pretending.
Its just the matter of time whether you can accept it or not.
Its just the matter of time whether you can see it or not.
Guess I have to pretend more.

I realised the world is cruel.
The society is harsh.
They are not what you think.
You don't think this way is because
either you are too rich to notice it.
or you are too ignorant about it.

But its ok.
People who say is impossible.
The only way is to listen and smile.
People who talk negatively.
Its alright.
Just prove them wrong.
You may not have to prove it now.
It takes time.
When the time comes.
Isn't it too late to regret.

Some people always think doing business is risky.
Since when you do anything poses no risk?
Since when everything is so successful.

I agree the fact that when you are up, people follow you.
But when you are down, people stay away from you.
So far, all I have seen are like that.
But is ok.
What comes around, goes around.
People tell me when its impossible.
Got people tell me when you success le, then tell me to join you.
Got people tell me when you rich le, then talk about it.
Now what you are talking is only rubbish.

True.
I agree on it.
But that was in the past.
Guess they havent see the real society.

Is investing a small amount of money to improve your health important?
Yes.
It definitely is.
But why do some people refuse to?
Why do some people do not believe.
Do you believe that you won't be sick or get illness forever?
Do you rather spend it on playing, eating, enjoying?
Or do you rather spend it on maintaining your health.

What if one day you fall ill?
Do you think the investment will be higher.
When I tell people.
All these equipments cost a few k.
They said is expensive.
Yes.
I agree.
But do you think the reason for it to be in such price is because of profit?
No.
Expensive stuff means quality stuff.

People are willing to spend hell lot of money to renovate their house.
Buy car, house, psp, ps3 and eat buffets.
But aren't these expensive?
But why do people buy.
Because they see it as a need.
There is a need for them to use it.
They always want the best quality.

Imagine do you want to buy a $50 psp slim or do you want to spend more on buying a $300 psp slim?
Why people don't mind spending so much.
Because its worth the price.
Its important to have it.

There is no way in the world that you are able to find such price.
Even if you manage to find.
Would you rather buy ours or to buy the cheapest one.
Do you trust the quality.

Nvm.
Enough of crap le.
The world is pretendance.
1% is real. 99% are fake.

But now I can see through who is fake and who is real.
Anyway, I already used to fake people le.
Just bear with it.
Until when I become rich.
I will go and find real people.
Cse only then you can see the turning point of your life.

End of story.
School going to start soon.
Stress is coming soon.

Holiday Reflection (Part 4)

2008-09-24T22:31:00.002+08:00

The second lesson with the boy was quite easy.
In fact, I was quite amazed at first,
when he told me that he had put all his MATHS stuffs in school.
I was like 'Shit, what am I going to teach him?'
But luckily, he still got his MATHS file left with him.
So I asked him to take out for me.

Looking at P5 MATHS textbook reminds me of my youth.
Haha.
Not really lah.
But when I looked at the questions.
I was like wth.
How come last time these type of questions I don't know how to solve.
It was so simple that I just worked it out without doing any workings.
So I started to revise with the boy starting from chapter 1.
He was not bad except that he was lazy.
I asked him to do Multiplications and additions questions.
I admit he got the basic knowledge for MATHS.
But just that he tends to make alot of silly mistakes.
Which I did alot during my school days.
Haha.

Time passed really fast.
1 hour and 30 min had just gone.
After the 2nd lesson, I start to feel that actually home tution can make me earn alot.
1 hour $15 siah.
And the time passed really fast.
All I need is to correct him.
Maybe I am considering of teaching him until he graduates from Primary school.

Reason being is simple.
1- It is an easy money for me.
2- I do not need to prepare anything in terms of looking through their stuffs cse I have already have the basic knowledge in MATHS.
But for godness sake, I am not boasting ok.
I am just writing a reflection.
3- I can help the boy in which I see alot of potential in him.
4- The timing seem ok with me. I don't think it will affect my studies.
5- I can always arrange my time with them if I am not free. So basically, it's flexible.

So maybe I might consider to teach him.
Like this I can also save up some money.

Besides now I am also doing as a Part Time Business in Venture Era.
I don't know whether it can help me in terms of incomes.
But nevermind, just give it a try.
Hope it pays off.
Haha.

Ok.
That's it for today.

Holiday Reflection (Part 3)

2008-09-22T22:19:00.004+08:00

Things are starting to get lagger n lagger again.
Despite reformating my laptop, the problems still there.
Wth.
Like as if I got lots of time to settle this.
Really darm asshole.
Even the wacom driver got problems.
Darm siah.
Everything not working well.

As for today de tution.
It went pretty fine before I meet the pupil.
It was a boy.
A very childish, simple minded but rude boy.
Not really rude.
But the way he talk sound rude.
Anyway, starting I was outside his house.
I knocked the door several times.
But nobody answered.
I called the company.

The lady picked up and I told her the situation.
She gave me their contact numbers.
And so, I have to try to call them to check whether they are at home.
Seriously, I called like don't know how many times, and nobody picked up.
I was super mad about it.
Waste my time to come then no one at home.

After that, the door opens...
I saw a small boy, and guessed he must be the one that I am going to tutor.
He had a small puppy at home.
I was standing outside, asking whether I can come in.
Then he said cannot.
Ya lah, I know obviously cannot.
Because his parents not at home.
He very scared.
Then when I told him that I am his tutor.
He believed me and then he called his mum.
He couldn't even contact his mum or dad.

So I helped him to contact.
Call and call...
Finally, I managed to call his father.
And you know what his father told me.
"We didn't know that the tution starts this week"
I was like...
WTH!
"Then he asked me to come next week again"
I was super angry at that time.
So I walked away.
Very piss off.
I called the company again, asking them what had happened.
Then the lady who answered my call previously,
she said his mum allowed me to come in.
I was like what!
I am like an idiot run move here and there.
Lucky the weather was good.
Then she asked me to call her mum again to tell her.
So I called.
Then when she picked up.
She apologized to me and asked me to start tution today.
So I sensed her sincerity, I walked back to the house again.
This time round, the boy let me enter into the house.

Well, the house was very tidy.
No really messy as compared to my house.
Haha.
The boy was actually quite talkative.
But this make me easier to teach him.
I taught him oral.
In fact, I trained him.
On picture based and reading passage.
He was very enthu.
But lucky our age gap wasn't like 10 years difference.
So I can still use some language to teach him.

Before I start, I asked him what does he like to do.
He said I like to play games, watch animes.
Lucky he got watch Naruto, Pokemon, Digimon, etc...
Most of which I have watched before.
So I used all these as examples when it comes to reading passages.
Fortunately, he found it quite interesting.
He learnt pretty fast.

When I taught him, it reminds me of my past experiences during Primary school Oral exam.
Tomorrow is his Oral exam.
So I got to help him out.
He got some pronouciations problems.
Other than that, so far, I think he is ok.
As long as he keep improving it.
He will be better.

As I am teaching him.
I can tell that he wanted the tution to end fast.
He was like asking me whether I want to go or not.
Well, seriously, if I wanted to leave, I can straight away leave.
Because no one at home except him and his dog.
But I have integrity OK!
I stayed until 6.30plus.
Then I leave.
He was like waiting for the time to come.
But anyway, in the end, who will be doing the exam?
I have finished my PSLE and my 'O' Level.
Who suffers in the end.
Haha.

But I can say he is not smart.
But he can be hardworking if he want to.
I will try to help him as much as I can.

Lucky he didnt call me 'Uncle' in the beginning.
If not, i will get super piss off again.
He keep calling me teacher.
Well, the feeling is totally different.
I feel so grown up.
Haha.
Joking lah.

I can see the differences between Primary school, Secondary school, Poly school and the society mindset.

Primary School de mindset-- Immature, Innocent, Active, Pure, Simple
Minded and Childish

Secondary School de mindset-- Mature for minority, Start to learn bad
thing, take things for granted and
easily being influenced by bad
companions

Poly School de mindset-- Quite mature, start to be independant, start to
think far for minority and easily being
influenced by bad companions

Society de mindset-- Mature, think far, plan far and independant

Which category do you belongs to?

Holiday Reflection(Part 2)

2008-09-15T23:18:00.004+08:00

Yeah!
Finally...
Today, I went to meet Vanessa.
We went to school just to reformat our laptop.
At first, we thought we need to like wait for at least 2-3 working days.
But when we were about to go home, the person message us, telling us that it's already done.
So both of us were like 'so fast!'
We went back to get it of course.

And now, everything is back to normal.
No more lagging le.
Haha.
I think next time onwards, I got to be becareful on things that I download.
Sometime got virus I don't even know.
Nvm.
What's in the past is in the past.
Start afresh for my laptop.
Yeah.

Now I going to start on my personal works for next sememster.
I heard that although next sem, we only have 5 modules excluding Studio Project 2.
It was getting tougher as time passed.
Well, I can't afford to lose anymore.

Tomorrow will be the release of our sem 1 overall result.
Really hope I can do well.
But haiz.
I won't expect much from it since it was sem 1.
But next sem onwards, I promised that I will do even better.
I must get at least B for every exercises and assignments for each modules.
I need to do well.

Holiday reflection(Part 1)

2008-09-12T14:42:00.004+08:00

It's been long since I blog.
Still got 5 more weeks before the next sememster start.
Next week, 16th of September will be the release of our overall result for sem 1.
Hope I can do well for it especially for my GPA.

I must score well for sem 1.
Hope can bah.

Anyway, I have been looking for jobs ever since term break started.
So far, I only managed to get one project which my bros introduce for me.
This project is pretty simple and the pay is good.
I have finished the project le, just waiting for approval before I get the money.

In the meantime, I have tried being a promoter, going from door to door promoting STARHUB.
But I think both Shaun and I don't have the so called 'patience' to do.
It's very tedious and tiring.
Sometime you have to face those customers that give you black face.
Sian.

Then I called some tution centres asking whether they are looking for any tutors.
Ended up, nobody reply.

I wanted to work in the design industry but I don't think I am up to the standard yet.
Maybe after sem 2 ends, then I might go and look for it.

Between, I have cut my hair.
I have to cut it because I will be working for the F1 event on 26, 27 and 28 of September.
The manager wanted us to cut short especially for boys.
It's very sickening to cut lor.
I got no choice but to cut it.
And is like secondary school standard.
Except that I leave my side burn untouch.
My fringe, I only trim 50%.
The remaining was cut short.
Haiz, and look weird with my short hair.
Not use to my short hair.
Haha.
But money comes first.
Hair can still grow back after some time.

Sick is sickening.

2008-09-02T11:53:00.002+08:00

Very sian siah staying at home, nothing to do.
I want to draw but very lazy.
Actually today I got some activities for me to do de.
Haiz, but because of me being sick, I was unable to go.
Why am I so weak.
But my mum was also sick too.
She even vomited yesterday.

Actually I didn't really get sick.
I guess I have been under the rain for many days.
The day where my brothers and I went to RSAF Open House, I also get drenched by the rain.
Yesterday also the same.
Haiz.
The weather nowadays was pretty strange.
Suddenly so cold.
Suddenly so warm.

Yesterday, I went with my Poly Friends, Clement, Anthony, Zhi Xian, Yong Kiat, Li Ying and Vanessa.
At first I thought the pay for TCC was quite attractive.
But its only for that 3 days event.
F1 event.
Although the meal and transport are provided, the overall pay for that day was the most $200.
Its considered very little for me.
I need to save up alot.
I need a job that can earn alot.
Haiz.
Why I am so poor.
If ever I am rich, I will do alot of things that I wanted to do.
I won't forget those who have treated me.
I won't forget those who have helped me whenever I need money urgently.
I won't forget their kindness.
I need alot alot of money.
But don't worry.
I won't use any scheming method or dirty tactics to earn it.
I will have to earn it through hardwork.

Hope the investments I have put into my DMD pays off at the end of the day.

The game have finally come to a break...

2008-08-29T18:15:00.003+08:00

It's been ages since I have the time to blog.
Yesterday was the end of sememster for me.
Finally, 20 weeks of sufferings have ended.
It went well yesterday for me.
Well, I didn't expect myself to be like that.

28/8/2008
This day was my presentation day for Studio Project 1.
I was really delighted that Ms Gail didn't really scold me until very bad.
The other judge was a female.
Both were quite happy with what I have done for my final works and my portfolio.
It was quite well done.
I hope the next sememster I could be like this too.

I have been having sleepless nights for these few days.
Chionging all my final stuffs.
I had learnt quite alot of things.
I think I have slacked too much.
Been relaxing for so long.
That's why I had to suffer at the end.
Luckily, I managed to catch up with my works.

But I guaranteed I won't be like this the next time.
I am going to learn from my mistakes.

21/8/2008
Today was the celebration of Teachers' Day.
I meet my brothers-Shaun, Yong Kuang, Jun Jie, Jun Hao, Jian Yang, Lionel and Melissa.
Still got other ex-Westwoodians.
This year celebration was really boring.
Super fast end.
But after that, there were teachers v.s students matches.
Got captains' ball and floorball.
That was quite interesting.
Haiz.
But I think this year would be the last year I am going back to my seconday school because most of the teachers I know are going to leave.
Very sian.
Time flies.

I had even given one of my portfolio work to my form teacher for last year.
Alot of the students don't recognise me.
Mainly because I had long hair.
But it is not very long lor.
Nvm.

After that, when we were about to leave, we saw Jacklyn, Crystal and Boon Nik.
At the end, we decided to go JP eat Pizza Hut.
Long time didn't meet them.
It feels very nice seeing them and chatting with them again.
Laughing and joking again.
Melissa didn't eat pizza with us because she need to go meet her friends later.
So we continued to chat and eat.
We ordered group set to eat.
Seriously, the food was very little for me lor.
Haiz.

After Pizza, Jacklyn, Crystal and Boon Nik went off.
So the remaining of us went to Arcade to play.
Only Louis who joined us later, and Jun Hao went to play arcade.
The rest of us were like watching them play because we don't have enough money.

Then Jun Jie, Yong Kuang, Lionel went off.
So left with me, Louis, Shaun, Jian Yang and Jun Hao.
We got nothing better to do but to walk around JP.
We even sit down at Mac to chit chat.
Then we walk around before we went to sit outside Delifrance and talk again.

Talk till 4 plus, then we leave the place.
Really like no life for some of you.
But to me, it's ok.
Rather than me spending the day drawing and painting.
So sian, although I like to do that.
But not everyday.

You see, everything changed alot.
Everyone was different compared to last time.
The bad thing was we forgot to take photos.
Haiz.
Everytime like this de.
Sian.

After my Studio Project, my mind was blank.
As white as a paper.
Nothing to do.
I want to play games but I scared I get addicted.
I want to draw but so called sick of it.
I want to sleep but just couldn't sleep.
Don't know why, before that, I feel like sleeping everyday.
But now, I don't feel like sleeping.
What to do.
I want to go out, but no money.
Thanks to my 'investment' for my DMD.
I want to go out play, but still need money.
No money really very shag.
I want to watch anime or any drama series, but I feel so like no life.
Really sian now.

But I am going to think of something to do...